Music for the Tragic Comedy

We're off to see the Wizard

2011-12-13T12:56:00.000-08:00

My blog title has nothing to do with this blog post content, it's just the first thing that popped into my head. Don't ask why. My brain is special. Like eat the paste special; It's a big bag of weird up there. If anyone can name the show that those two quotes are from I'll give you a gummy bear and a kiss. Lets see, lets see....what was the point of this blog post.........I can't seem to remember......give me a second........................oooh yessssssss....I remember. THIS STUFF!

It's white, its cold, it's wet, it kills people, it's horrible, its.....S-N-O-W and I hate hate hate HATE it. Who likes the color white? Not me! The only real purpose of white is to remember to keep ourselves clean and pure and to make colors lighter when you're painting. THAT'S IT! Who likes to be cold? Not me! Anyone out there wake up in the morning and thing, "Dang it I wish I was cold!" or does anyone lounge around thinking, "Man I could really use a good cup of COLD!" Who likes being wet? Not me! The only time I ever enjoy being wet is in a nice hot bath. That's all! And even then I'm miserable once I'm out and my hair is all wet. Who likes things that kill people? Not me! I'm pro life. I want everyone to live happily ever after. No dying. Who likes horrible things? Not me! I like nice fluffy things like bunnies and puppies. I like things that make me feel happy like good food and hot men. Who likes the snow? You better not like the snow if you're friends with me. Those people in the picture don't even look happy. They look miserable. I can tell! If someone can tell me how the snow benefits ME then I can re-consider everything I've just said. But until then I'm going to sit in my nice warm house, watch a movie, sip my hot chocolate, and curse at the stupid ugly white stuff falling to the ground. YUCK!

Blogging

2011-12-01T12:24:00.000-08:00

I need to get something off my chest about this whole blog world. I enjoy reading blogs and I also enjoy writing in my blog but here's my problem. I don't know what to say. I mean I have thoughts, LOTS of thoughts but putting them into words on a blog is the hard part. Do I post about my day, do I post about what i ate for dinner, or do I post the last time I went to the bathroom. I've had this blog for almost three years and I don't have a lot to show for it but I love looking back and reading old posts and thinking about the memories so I'm going to try......key word TRY to stay updated. I'm not in school anymore (yay for getting a degree) so I have a lot of time to on my hands and why not use it for this ~~damn~~ thing. For those of you that don't know I'm currently living in Park City. Here are the pros and cons of living in Park City.

Pros
1. I live with a rich family that buys me things
2. I don't pay for rent or for food
3. I have my own living room, tv, and bathroom without having to share
4. I don't pay for gas....ever.
5. I make really good money for the work I'm doing
6. I get to see moose in my backyard
7. When we go out to eat we always get dessert

Cons
1. I live on top of a very steep mountain that's terrifying when it snows
2. I'm not a skier or snowboarder
3. I'm not outdoorsy
4. I'm not a hippy even though sometimes I dress like it
5. I don't smoke pot... (I don't fit in)
6. There's not many LDS people around
7. Did I mention the REALLY steep mountain

Obviously my life isn't that bad right now.....is it perfect? No! But when has my life ever been perfect.....scratch that....when is ANYONE'S life perfect? And things could always be a heck of a lot worse. I could still be living in Rexburg. Yick!

VERY First Wedding

2011-06-25T21:53:00.000-07:00

I took wedding pictures today for the first time EVA and I must say they turned out FANTASTIC! I loved it because this girl LOVES funky colors of pictures and just artsy stuff so I can edit them all cool. I can't wait to edit the rest. Here's a couple. They were a great couple!

Love for Photography

2011-06-23T19:06:00.000-07:00

It's pictures like this that really make me love photography. It's probably not a good picture to anyone else and I'm sure a lot of people would hate this picture. But there's at least one picture in every "roll" of film that speaks to me and this one just does. I can't explain it. It almost makes me cry. I just really love it. I wish I could put into words how it makes me feel but I can't. This is just why I love taking pictures. It isn't to be the best, I don't want to ever toot my own horn, I don't even care if no one in this world likes my pictures. It's for my own pleasure and to know that I saw beauty through that camera lens and I captured it. Ahh beautiful!

Simple Beauty

2011-06-20T21:45:00.001-07:00

New Favorite Skirt

2011-06-16T01:16:00.001-07:00

Two posts in one day!?!? SAY WWWHHHHAAATTTT!! It's shocking! But I have no life. Soooooo lose some weight. . .buy a new skirt! And I loooovveeee this one! (Wow I'm using a lot of double, triple, quadruple, quintuple, sex((hehe))tuple, letters) Isn't it so cute? And it was only $10 (because I never buy anything that's over 10 unless it's pants or shoes. . .shoes is even pushing it) from H&M, the store of all stores, and it has pockets. Not the pest picture ever but you get the idea. Cuttteeee!

Portfolio Project

2011-06-15T21:58:00.000-07:00

This was my final portfolio project for my final Art class of my college career. I thought I'd share. . .it was a lot of work and I got bit by a dog for the first time ever in the whole process of it. It's not the most amazing quality because of the process of uploadinig it but whatever. Thanks for watching!

50 Steps to a Good Paper at BYU-Idaho

2011-06-14T18:02:00.000-07:00

I sometimes wonder how I passed college. . .oooh wait this is how

1. Sit down on the couch in front of the TV in the living room

2. Log on to facebook, msn, and i-learn

3. Read over the assignment carefully, to make certain you understand it.

4. Walk to the kitchen and get some water

5. Check your email.

6. Ask your roommate if she wants to go get taco bell

7. When you get back sit back down in front of the TV and eat your taco bell

8. Read over the assignment again to make absolutely certain you understand it.

9. Check your email.

10. You know, you haven't written to that missionary in a while, you better get that out of the way so you can concentrate.

11. Look at your teeth in the bathroom mirror for any pieces of taco bell.

12. Go grab some horkley's in case you get thirsty.

13. Check your facebook

14. Facebook chat with one of your friends.

15. Check your email.

16. Watch that new video on youtube.

17. Text your friend in the class and ask her if she's started the assignment. She hasn't.

18. Go to broulims and buy a brownie mix.

19. Make the brownies

20. Check your email.

21. Eat the brownies

22.Laugh at the things going on in the kitchen with your roommates

23. Check youtube again for anything funny you might have missed

24. Go to your room so you can concentrate.

25. Check your email

26. Go out to the living room because you hear boys have come over.

27. Offer tham brownies and eat another brownie

28. Facebook chat with anyone you can find whether you like them or not

29. Go back to the assignment and read the instructions again

30. Write you name and date at the top of the paper.

31. Check someone's pics on facebook and eventually stalk someone tagged in one

32. Realize you havent' showered in two days

33. Go shower

34. Get ready for bed so you can crash right after you write the paper.

35. Eat another brownie.

36. Stay in the kitchen talking with your roommates

37. Realize it's 2 in the morning

38. Head back to your room and stare at your name and the date

39. Pillow talk with your roommate that stayed out past curfew

40. Decide it's a good idea to say a prayer

41. Come to the conclusion that getting up early would be easier because it's 3 am

42. Go to sleep.

43. Listen to your alarm go off.

44. Sleep through it

45. Listen to your roommate get up.

46. Listen to ALL your roommates get up

47. Decide to roll out of bed an hour before class

48. Open computer frantically and stare and name and date

49. Whip out something with lots of fluff, big words, and a couple quotes from Apostles

50. Get an A

Forgive Me

2011-06-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

So everyone needs to give me a break because I went on vacation but I'm happy to say that I've lost six pounds. I wish it were more but I'm feelin pretty good. And I went on vacation and was eating crap so I'm patting myself on my back. I'm going to put some pictures of the vacation up and more details about the stupid fetchin weight loss. Thanks for reading!

1 Day Down

2011-05-10T19:15:00.000-07:00

WELLLLLL.....I made it through 24 hours people. I ran three miles and did thirty leg throws. ANNNNDDDD I nearly puked. I've barely eaten all day and I haven't had any sweets. I'm surprised I'm not imagining my father as a giant hot dog and I don't even like hot dogs. I feel good though. I feel like I can do this. I just want instant results and alas that does not happen. I'm surprised I went a whole day without anything sweet. I don't think I've EVER done that. They're my weakness. But on to bigger and better things. . .

Today I taught a pre-schooler and his kindergarten sister the saying "Mama had a baby and it's head popped off" and then I showed them how to pop off the dandelion head. Morbid? Yes. Will I get a phone call from an angry mother tomorrow? Probably. Did it get the kid to stop crying? You betcha! I figured someone taught me and I turned out semi-normal so he'll be fine! He kept saying, "POP IT! POP IT!" And then after every time he'd say, "Woah!" Most adorable thing I've ever seen but he was NOT adorable five minutes before hand when he was bawling his eyes out and kicking me.

Also has anyone heard of Hefa Tuita? I saw him on Dancing with the Stars and I think I'm in love. Besides the hair, he's the hottest thing I've seen since T.I. I don't know what it is about me and brown boys but they sure as heck are hot. He was born in Spanish Fork, Utah so I think I have a pretty good chance!

Well tomorrow is another day, another dollar. . .or in my case complete volunteer work for college credit. Lets hope tomorrow goes as well as today and I have hott dreams of brown boys.

I'm a Starter

2011-05-09T18:57:00.000-07:00

Alright people (uhhum. . .no one) lets have a little chat about some things. We all know there are loads of different kinds of people in this world. There are. . .
Butt Smellers: Usually 16 year olds (age varies) with zits that play video games, drink Mountain Dew, eat Cheetos and Little Caesars.
Devil Children: Boys (gender DOES NOT vary) with red hair and freckles
Jeaners: People who wear jeans to either a. Events that you should be wearing a dress or slacks. b. Events that could go either way. Mormons fit well into this category.
Fakers: Those who walk around faking every thing in their life

Then of course theres your typical leaders, followers, "sportos, motorheads, geeks, sluts, bloods, wastoids, dweebies, dickheads--They all adore him." (name that movie for ten points), yadda yadda yadda and then there's starters. Starters start projects with high hopes and big dreams and they never finish them. They go for three days with great ambition and then fail miserably. Ladies and gentlemen, and by gentleman I mean Emily (She's the only person who reads this. . .who am I kidding? She doesn't even read it) I'M A FETCHIN STARTER!!! I start numerous projects, goals, hopes, dreams, and I NEVER EVER finish them. I made a goal to graduate college and that hasn't even happened yet. BYU-Idaho won't let that happen (another story, another day) I started this blog, that went to shat. I started a journal, gave up on that in 2nd grade. Scripture study, prayers morning and night, saving money, vlogs, picture a day, not get on facebook, stop talking people. . .endless amounts of GOALS. Have I done well in any of them? Of course not. So here's what I'm proposing. I'm going to make it a goal to quit being a starter. And you people (again no one) are going to help me. If I have this stupid bleep bleep-ed-dee blog to write to everyday and to answer to someone then I think I can do this. Now onto the goals. . .

Some of you who are close to me know that I've had a bit of a rough year and in turn this has made me gain a sickening amount of weight. No I'm not 300 pounds! How dare you ask! But I am at a weight that I shouldn't be and that I've never been at before. I signed up for a free 21 day trial thing at Anytime Fitness and the guy pretty much told me I'm fat and need to lose the weight. I almost said, "Well bend me over, spit on my neck, and call me Sally. I never would have thunk." But of course I just nodded and smiled. Now I'm not going to tell you my weight because that would be idiotic but I am going to document everyday how much I've lost. And what I did for exercise and if I see any cute boys at the gym. Here is a list of my goals.
1. Lose 20 pounds (hopefully more) in two months--July 9
2. No sweets (candy, cake, cookies. . .all the good stuff) until July 4th---Let me inform all of you that my family eats our feelings so this will be a tough one.
3. Work out everyday (except Sunday) for AT LEAST 1 hour.--This will continue even after my trial at the gym.
4. Sit ups every single night
5. Stop eating by 6 every night
And last but not least. . .
6. Write in this damn blog everyday. Sheesh!

Pray for me people. Pray for me.

Teachers

2011-02-15T12:07:00.000-08:00

I grew up in a home with two teachers. My father is a high school teacher and my mother was a first grade teacher for many years and now is a second grade teacher. I've never wanted to be a teacher. EVER. I've seen what they've had to go through and it's not fun. Yes they have their summers off and weekends. They get to go home before five (only sometimes). But they go through a hell of a lot. They deal with brats all day and then they would come home and deal with my brothers and me. They don't get paid NEAR enough and they deal with idiotic parents all the time. It's just not something I've ever wanted to do for my lives work but I do love children. I love working with them and I've always had a knack for dealing with them so I decided to go into child development. Now anyone who knows the child development program at BYU-Idaho knows that it's full of people who "Thought it would be a good major because they just want to be a mom" Don't get me wrong. I can't wait to be a mother but that's not the reason I went into child development. I actually want to help children other than my own. I know it's a crappy world and that a lot of kids need help because their parents don't care. Thats why I decided to go into child development.

Now back to the teacher topic. Every child development major has a to a practicum and for those of you who don't know what a practicum is, it's like an internship but the school places you. It's just another way to get experience before you graduate. We can choose between teaching preschool or teaching elementary kids. I chose teaching elementary kids mostly because it's the easier one to get into and I really needed to get into it to graduate. So before we actually got to teach, my group and I had to plan out what we were going to do for the ten weeks we were teaching. No one wanted to volunteer to go first because everyone was really nervous about it but I wasn't. So I was lucky number one and on top of that my teacher was grading me that day and we only get graded once by him.

The day I was teaching everything went smoothly. I think my group was more nervous for me then I was. I talked to the children about farms and they loved it. I wanted to smack a couple of the little brats but I refrained. Anyways, at the end of the lesson the teacher pulled me aside to talk about my teaching skills. Can anyone guess the first words out of his mouth? Anyone? Anyone? Raised or lowered? He said and I quote, "Ali Kunz you were definitely meant to be a teacher!" I burst out laughing. One of those laughs that make you laugh for the rest of the day. One of those laughs that you're pretty sure you just peed your pants a little. He was shocked that I was laughing in his face but I couldn't help it. I told him that both my parents were teachers and that was the last thing I wanted to do. He encouraged (begged) me to reconsider my thoughts and he has tried ever since that day and to a devastating fail. I guess I just won't be doing what I meant to do in life. Darn it all!

Let me tell ya a lil sumpin sumpin!

2011-02-09T10:30:00.001-08:00

I wrote this a while ago but I thought I would share. . .Here is the background information. Bare with me. There's a point to all this. I attend BYU-Idaho....in case some of you didn't know. I came here my Freshmen year in 2007. Looking back on it, I loved it the majority of time. And then my parental units were ticked that I was getting not so decent grades (aka not as good as Adam) and made me move back home and attend Utah State. I took two....count them TWO shoot me in the face-waste of time-bend me over-spit on my neck classes fall semester of 2008 and also the phlebotomy course at Bridgerland, worked at Ruby Tuesday 35 hours a week, and lived at home with no social life what so ever. Needless to say I was completely miserable. So the summer of 2009 I decided to come back to BYU-Idaho hoping this would help me better myself and finally get my degree. I have since got a job (which I love) and gone to school FIVE AND A HALF semesters IN A ROW!!!!! Thats approximately 77 weeks, which is about 19 months straight of schooling and let me tell you I AM DOWN RIGHT SICK OF THIS PLACE! Here at BYU-Idaho we cough rainbows and puke butterflies.....or so we're told we're supposed to. It's never happened to me but I have met a lot of people that seem way to cheery and the only explanation is that every time they cough, a rainbow comes out. Which don't get me wrong, if thats who are then thats who you are, it's just not my style. So we're all supposed to be happy that we go to a school filled with love, the Gospel, and cheap tuition. I love the Gospel. I love cheap tuition. But am I always rooting to love this school? Hell to the no! Case in point: The people that run the shinannigans around here have a hard time deciding when it's the best time to fix or change things such as our BYU-Idaho website, our registration system, and more recently, our financial aid system. They decided the BYU-Idaho website needed to be changed right during finals week, then of course the registration system HAD to change right during registration, and they just had to get the financial aid system changed the weekend before classes started this semester when everyone and their dog needed money. It has been MASS chaos since the moment everyone stepped foot back in Rexburg. They've had to waive late tuition fees, offer emergency loans for families that didn't have money to pay for food, transfer all calls to the help desk and computer center (which don't have a clue about financial aid), and the only way to communicate with any of the financial aid workers is through Facebook. I can't even begin to tell you how bad it's been. I barely received my money yesterday and it's almost mid-terms. And people are still waiting for their money. Okay so maybe there wasn't a point to this post but I sure as heck needed that venting session. Thanks for reading!

Maternity Pictures

2010-11-14T01:42:00.000-08:00

Here are the first maternity pictures I've ever taken. I was pretty nervous to do these because I've never taken pictures of a belly before but I think they've turned out pretty good. Here are a few! What do ya'll think?

Winter

2010-11-11T08:15:00.000-08:00

It's that time a year again. We've had snow on our lawn since Monday. I call this picture Fanter (combination of Fall and Winter...also sorry it's not amazing. Just snapped a picture). This is the time when we all freeze, we each gain ten pounds, and the white stuff continues to fall to the ground and stick. I'm indifferent to this time of year. I never know if I love it or hate it. I like the snow. I think it's beautiful but I only think it's beautiful if I'm inside, wrapped in a blanket, watching a movie, and drinking hot chocolate. I hate driving in it but it wouldn't be Christmas without snow so I'm grateful for it. Talk about inner turmoil right? There is one thing that I love about winter more than anything and there's no inner turmoil over it. And that is WINTER FASHION!!!! I love coats! I love hats! I ESPECIALLY love boots! I love tights and leggings! I love warm fuzzy socks! I love gloves! I LOVE IT ALL!!!!! Look at the outfit I wore the other day (sorry it's not amazing quality)

Ahh isn't it just so freakin cute! Now don't get me wrong I love a good summer dress but there's not many accessories in the summer and in the winter you can keep adding stuff and it's okay because your excuse is you're just trying to keep warm. Also everyone take note of the awesome facial expression. Am I the only one who loves winter clothing? Is this a crazy thought?

October

2010-10-29T23:11:00.000-07:00

We went out for a little photoshoot for fall the other day. Lysh wanted to learn how to use the camera. I've been promising her I'd let her take pictures of me forever so we finally did it but of course I didn't no include those pictures because I'm fatty mc fatterson. But knowing me as you all know me, I couldn't resist taking a couple shots of Lysh and Miles and then Miles wanted to take some of Lysh and me. I think those are my favorite just because they are fun. All in all everyone was using the camera and we had a lot of fun. Thanks for reading!

Inception

2010-10-11T23:48:00.000-07:00

So I just wanted to write a quick blog about the movie Inception that everyone and their dog, cat, and turtle have heard about. Me and my great friend Alysha I think we're the only two people left in the country that hadn't seen that movie yet....oh wait I know that none of my family has seen it. Anywho whenever someone heard Alysha and I hadn't seen it yet these were some of the reactions we got...
"Ooh it's the great movie of all time. You have to go see it!"
"Best movie ever! I saw it three times. The second time I was able to understand it better. So you might be confused."
"Oh that movie will change your life."
"I saw it twice and I would still pay ten more dollars to see it again."
"I seriously love that movie!"
"That movie will definitely make you think and you'll love it."
etc......etc......etc......
Anytime the above happens with a movie I always get my hopes super high which is sometimes a good thing and sometimes a bad thing. This particular time it was a bad thing. So Saturday night Lysh and I went to the movie Inception and let me tell you Inception was not the most amazing movie I've ever seen. It was not life changing. I didn't have to really think about anything that was going on. I understood it. I wouldn't have to see it again to get what was going on unless I completely missed something which I'm pretty sure I didn't. I saw it at the cheap theater and I most definitely would not even pay four dollars again to sit and watch it especially since it's TWO AND A HALF FREAKIN HOURS!!!!! By the time two hours rolled around I was way passed ready for it to be over. I thought in my head....
"Okay peeps we know this is going to end good. Everything is going to work out. Whats his ugly face is going to be saved. Everyone is going to be happy SO JUST BLOODY END IT ALREADY!!!!" I was getting so anxious to get out of there. This is something my brother Adam would enjoy seeing though. And we have opposite tastes in movies. My advice to him though is watch it online and without Emily. Anyways....the point is if you really want to see this movie because of all the hype then keep your hopes low and think of it as just another interesting movie. I will say that whoever thought of the concept was brilliant. It was definitely a very interesting and cool idea but was it the best movie of all time? NO! Will I pay money to watch it again? NO! Will I buy it? Definitely not! Did it change my life? Uhhh let me check....Capital N capital O! And Juno was in it and I just can't handle her in any other movie. She's Juno for crying out loud! Thanks for reading!

Artsy Fartsy

2010-10-10T01:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when I'm wandering around taking pictures I stumble across things that are pretty amazing.....well at least amazing to me. If you can't see how cool and artistic these pictures are then you'll just have to dig really deep for your creative side. I realize that some of you are looking at these pictures thinking I've lost my eye for good photography but look at the lights and darks of the pictures. Look and the contrast, the opposites, the fact that the canal water is only being separated by a little thing of cement and have the water is doing something completely different then the other half, look how that same picture draws you around the entire picture around and around. It's okay if you don't think it's cool or artsy fartsy but I very much any looking at the cool things nature brings us photographers. Thanks for reading!

Favorites

2010-09-08T09:26:00.001-07:00

Here are some of my favorites from the photoshoot...

Fun at the Laundromat

2010-09-03T23:58:00.000-07:00

This is my friend Nick! We had so much fun with this photo shoot! We took loads of pictures but these were my favorite! It was just a good time. More to come!

Mary Ellen Mark

2010-08-12T18:01:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite photographers of all time is Mary Ellen Mark. Not a ton of people have heard of her unless you're into photography but I absolutely love her. She captures things that are not beautiful and turns them into something beautiful. She's mostly a black and white photographer and has some serious skills. She does a lot of cool self portraits to but some of those are a little more risque. So I'll just show you some of my favorites and you can google at your own risk if your interested. She definitely pushes the boundaries of photography.

She does a lot of work at the circus and poor parts of cities. Here is one story she told about my ALL TIME favorite photograph of her's.

In 1990, Peter Howe at Life magazine sent me to North Carolina to photograph a special school for children with problems. The school was a very strange place because all of the twenty or so children were in the same classroom and their problems ranged from mild behavior instability to severe schizophrenia.

Nine-year-old Amanda was the most interesting child in the class. She was my favorite child. Amanda was very intelligent and very naughty. One day I followed her home on the school bus. When the bus stopped at her house, she dashed ahead of me and ran into a nearby wooded area. I continued to follow her into the woods and eventually found her sitting in an old stuffed chair having a cigarette. She thought that I would reprimand her since I was an adult. But I said nothing.

The following Sunday, I spent the day at home with Amanda and her mother. Amanda totally controlled her mother. She constantly gave her orders and proceeded to put on her mother’s nail polish and makeup. Amanda smoked openly in front of her. Her 8-year-old cousin Amy was coming over, and she was very excited. All day long, Amanda and her cousin played like children. Every forty-five minutes or so, Amanda would take a break to have a cigarette. Her mother could say nothing; Amanda was the boss.

Just before I left, I looked for Amanda to say good-bye. I found her and Amy in the backyard. They were in a children’s inflatable pool. Amanda was taking her regular cigarette break.” Mary Ellen Mark

Two Posts

2010-07-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

Two posts in one day? Two posts within hours of each other? SAY WHA WHA WHHHHAAATTT? Yep thats right! I'm posting again....to say a couple things. In approximately three and a half hours I will be DONE with spring semester!! WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!! Second thing why did a girl just come out of a classroom and scream "WHY IS THERE ANOTHER CLASS IN HERE AFTER THIS ONE!!?!?!?" I said.....uhh is that a rhetorical question? She looked at me with evil filled eyes, turned, and walked into the classroom she just walked out of....odd little school I go to. Last thing...and I did save the best for last...don't you just love this picture?

I know what you're thinking.....yes those are dead people and yes I do think this picture is absolutely b-e-a-utiful! This picture was taken by Timothy O’Sullivan in 1863 and it's entitled Harvest of Death. It was taken during the Civil War. Doesn't it just move you? Doesn't it just make you want to go take pictures of things that people don't normally find beautiful like dead animals or trees? I think it's just so moving and so perfect. Some of the other pictures of dead soliders I've studied aren't near as captivating and amazing as this one. Look at those horses in the background and the riders. Look at the man standing over the body in the very back. Doesn't that just make you think what is he doing? Is he standing over his brother? Friend? Father? Do you think he's grieving? Or is he the bad guy? Okay I'm ranting I know but I just wanted to share that with everyone. Sorry if it grosses peeps out! Just went till my next post (:

Dear......

2010-07-20T06:58:00.000-07:00

Dear Dude I see everywhere on campus--
Who told you that wearing glasses that get darker with sunlight is okay? I'm pretty sure those went out a long time ago. I know there's that fancy commercial that makes them look all cool and that they're making a comeback but the truth is......their not. Please purchase yourself some normal glasses so I won't get embarrassed and flustered whenever I see you outside on campus. Also I'm completely and totally terrified of male red heads so please stop showing up wherever I am. I'm currently sitting in my car as the sell back book line gets longer and longer and I'm doing just to avoid you and you awkwardly saying hi like we know each other. Please ugly red head get new glasses.
Sincerely,
Girl who very much dislikes you

Cutest Darn Thing

2010-06-24T23:15:00.000-07:00

Hey All! So I know I've been MIA this past month. So much for my picture 365! I might start back up here in a couple weeks when finals are over. But I just wanted to show everyone one of the cutest babies I've ever seen. She's absolutely adorable! Take a look! Ooh and I threw in a picture of her brother too because that black and white picture of him is my fav!

Day 22--May 11, 2010

2010-05-10T23:20:00.000-07:00

First off was it really ONLY Monday today!? I keep thinking it should be Wednesday tomorrow. Today wasn't even hard it was just so long! Anyways today's picture is going to be a little different. I'm in a photo class for my minor and I want your guy's opinion on which photo you think I should turn it. It has to be black and white and it's explaining depth of field. Here are your options.
Photo 1
Photo 2
Photo 3

Day 21--May 9, 2010

2010-05-09T12:18:00.001-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!! I hope we're all celebrating our mothers and how grateful we are for them. I know I'm sure grateful for my madre! P.S. Sorry I look so bad in the picture. It was VERY late last night.

Day 20--May 8, 2010

2010-05-09T02:29:00.000-07:00

So it's technically not the 8th right now but oh well....these are my TOMS! I love them! They are the most comfortable shoes ever and they don't cause blisters and I know, I know, the picture isn't even focused on my shoes...it's focused on my shirt. But I like it that way thank you very much. I was so bored waiting for my roommate to come go get ice cream with me. She takes forever to get ready so I was taking pictures.

Day 19--May 7, 2010

2010-05-07T16:18:00.001-07:00

Today has been a pretty good day. I think it's because it's Friday and it's the weekend. No school. No work. Or maybe it's because I wore one of my favorite outfits. It's so comfortable and today the weather was sunny but still a little chilly. Sorry the picture is so blurry but you get the idea!

Day 18--May 6, 2010

2010-05-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

Today was just one of those days.....you know those days when you just want to sit down and cry for hours and hours and hours about nothing but also about everything? Yeah I'm sure we've all had em. Especially if you're a girl. Well today was one of those days and after a three hour career workshop (BARF!!) I made home made oreos and this is me eating one. Needless to say I still wanted to cry when I was done eating this bad boy.

Day 17--May 5, 2010

2010-05-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

First off HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO!! Tonight I went country dancing with Alysha and Alyssa. It's not my favorite thing ever. In fact I kind of hate it but I'm trying to be more social. Here is our picture before we went. I look horrible compared to the two babes beside me but it was nice to get out of the house.

Day 16--May 4, 2010

2010-05-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

So today has been some what of a crappy day. I woke up this morning hurling my guts out. Had to skip my first class which is luckily okay because my roommate is in that class and me and the teacher are super tight. Anyways, I don't know where I got this bug but it was weird and I got over it quickly. I was laying on the couch during devotional (which is the time that the entire campus shuts down and everyone gathers together to listen to speaker for an hour...as if we don't get enough church already in our lives) and my roommate Mal always comes home for it and listens to it and I'm usually home because there's nothing to do on campus. I can't work and they lock the library. So anyways this is usually what our Tuesday afternoons (and most of the moments at the Condie Cottage) consist of....ladies and gentlemen the talent of Malorie taking a nap.I like this picture because it looks like she's a little girl and I'm a giant thats poking here. She takes naps more than anyone I know. And she doesn't have to get up early but she wakes up at seven every morning. It's ridiculous! I tell her she sleeps so much during the day and she yells at me and says it's because I get up so early and I immediately say nobody forces you to get up nor is there any reason you have to get up. You bring that upon yourself! And she'll go to sleep in the middle of a conversation. Don't put it passed her. She's been in the middle of a sentence and fallen asleep before. She's ridiculous!

Day 15--May 3, 2010

2010-05-03T13:03:00.000-07:00

So I've failed at my photo 365...ha that didn't last long did it? But I'm going to keep going even though I've missed a couple days. And here is my picture for day uhh...I guess it's 15 and this is the reason I've missed the last couple days. My brother came home for a visit from DC cuz he's done with his first year in law school YAY!!! CONGRATS TO HIM!!! Pat on his back! And this is basically all we've done this weekend. See the food in front of us? See how gross we look? Yeah that was us all weekend. But it's been great to have a good weekend and relax at home with free food and a nice bed.

Day 12--April 30, 2010

2010-04-30T22:51:00.001-07:00

My drive home for the weekend on Day 12!! YAY for coming home and have a nice bed to sleep in and free food! It's the best! But it's not a fun drive. Luckily it's not very long. I'm happy to be here! And also I look a little ticked in this picture but I promise I was very excited and happy.

Day 11--April 29, 2010

2010-04-29T18:11:00.000-07:00

Here is my picture for day 11....This is me and my roommate Mal. She's on the phone with her fiance and he was stuck in Ohio because he missed his flight home to come see her.
This morning I woke up and had gone into the bathroom to brush my teeth, of course EXTREMELY unhappy to be out of bed and awake and she comes bursting into the bathroom dancing (like an idiot I might add) and singing "100 days!!! 100 days!!! Till I am MARRRIIIIEEEDDD!!!! 100 DAYS! YEAH YEAH!!!" Or something to that effect. I gave her the death glare as my toothbrush hung out of my mouth. I was even MORE unhappy that someone was dancing and singing in my face. Then once I was ready and we were on our way to class, searching for a parking spot (don't even get my started on the pain it causes me to find a parking spot on this blasted campus) and she turns to me and screams "Ali FOUR MORE MINUTES AND IT'S 100 DAYS!!!" I turn to her and say, "I thought we already celebrated this not forty five minutes in the bathroom." She just laughed of course and went on with her jolly happy I'm getting married mood. THEN around six o'clock this evening we were walking to the car and she said "100 days Ali! I'm getting married in 100 days." I said to her, "Mal it's less then 100 days now, you've got to stop saying that." She said, "99 days! I'm getting married in 99 days!" So there you have it folks....my life consist of pretty much that. School, work, sleep, eat, and listen to Mal talk about getting married. Okay so it's really not that bad. Well the story is all very true but I'm exaggerating about my life just a bit and I freakin love her guts so it's okay that I have to listen to her. But this is me being supportive and holding her hand while she's stressed about her fiance getting a flight. Luckily he found a way home and they will get to see each other. Hooray!

Day 10--April 28, 2010

2010-04-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

This is me, mal, and lysh after a long day and night. Today has been a kick in the pants for all three of us and we're definitely ready for the weekend. What a day!

Day 9--April 27, 2010

2010-04-27T18:52:00.000-07:00

Here's my picture for Day 9...I know you can't really see my eyes and it's kinda creepy but I just had to show everyone how freakin thick my statistics binder is. It's absolutely ridiculous. It's 905 pages long, front and back, of things that I will never use in real life. I've been doing it since about five and it's eight right now. I love my life!

Day 8--April 26, 2010

2010-04-26T17:04:00.000-07:00

A favorite pass time at Condie Cottage....watching TLC (which is what our TV is on the majority of the time) and kicking back with a happy hour sonice slushie!

Day 7--April 25, 2010

2010-04-25T21:24:00.000-07:00

Here is my picture for day 7 (YAY ONE WHOLE WEEK) and this is called a Horkley's everybody. Actually it's really just a 44 oz Dr. Pepper and Horkelys is where you go to get the big drink and it's only 75 cents. 50 cents if it's just a refill and you already have the cup. And it's the best Dr. P in town! When someone says hey can we go get a Horkley's you already know that that means a 44 oz drink of some kind. I'm not a huge pop drinker but sometimes I need a Dr. Pepper and last night was one of them. My roommates can jug those things in one night. I unfortunately can sip a little bit and save the rest for the next day and that's just what I did today. It helped me get through my statistics homework. Barf!

Day 6--April 24, 2010

2010-04-24T23:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we don't like people to come to our cottage and tonight was one of those night so me, Mal, and Lysh all stayed in the back room and took pictures. Than things got really crazy and we got our hair crazy and made a video to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. It was a fun night. So here's my picture for day 6. Enjoy!

Day 5--April 23, 2010

2010-04-23T19:27:00.000-07:00

Okay so here's my picture for day five...

Let me just tell you what this picture is (see labeled picture below, click to enlarge). This is a project I'm doing at work right now. We thought that his project was already done and then we found a whole other box and the girl working on it was graduating and had ZERO motivation to get it done. (understandable) These are letters to a mission president that served in Paris, France. His name was Cecil Hart and his wife's name was Vera or is Vera..I'm not sure if she's still alive. Anyways these letters were written by the missionaries that we serving under him at the time. It's like their report on how their doing and such. I have to look at every letter, see who it's from and put it in a stack according to the first letter of the last name. For example Anderson goes in the A pile. Sounds easy right? It's not. First of all everyone wrote in cursive back then and they were HORRIBLE at it. I have a whole stack of papers I have no idea about. Secondly postage costs so much that they had to write on paper that is pretty much tissue paper so what looks like a stack of normal papers is indeed a foot tall of tissue paper. Small squares of tissue paper. Just imagine it people. Tissue paper is thin stuff. And third it doesn't end here. After I get them separated into letters of the alphabet I take the A stack and put the letters of the same missionary or same last name together and put them in alphabetical order. For example all of Andersons are together and all of the Ashcrofts are together and of course Anderson is filed before Ashcroft. Get the picture? Now at this point you're probably asking yourself why the heck is the BYU-Idaho Special Collections wanting to save some random guy's missionary correspondence. Well the only answer I can get from people is that he used to teach on campus. And so you're saying so what? And I'm saying Yeah...tell me about...I say that every time I open one of these stupid letters.

I worked four hours yesterday and five hours today and only finished the first stack. I have two more stacks to go. I only took little five minute breaks to interview people. Also good ol Cecil is dead and I found his own personal note pad with notes still on it......Not cool! I'm good with people that died decades ago but this guy died like a few years ago. I don't want to handle his stinkin note pad. I also got to go through some of his bills and normal mail that got thrown in there. That was a waste of time. Don't get my wrong I love my job but this project is definitely not a fun one. And I have yet to find any juicy letters. The most I got is one guy complaining (after he was off his mission) about his "summer love" that just wants to have a career and is going off to do her own thing and wants nothing to do with him. Poor guy. I wonder if he ever found someone.

Day 4--April 22, 2010

2010-04-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

So this whole picture thing is SUPER hard. I can't think of things that happen in my day. But this picture is how I feel about today. It was raining all day, it was cold, I had a giant zit on my chin that I wanted to walk around covering with my fingers, and it was just a blah black and white day. So here's day three....sorry not too exciting.

Day 3--April 21, 2010

2010-04-21T19:51:00.000-07:00

So today it started to get all windy and gross outside and then it turned into a thunderstorm so I wanted to go outside and see if I could catch some lightning but of course I failed because lightning in Rexburg is not so good. Anyways I took some pictures of other cool things around me like this red fence. So here is the picture for day three and also another one that I thought was pretty cool.

Day 2--April 20, 2010

2010-04-20T20:12:00.000-07:00

Here's my picture for day two. It doesn't look like I'm in it but I am...I was trying to look through the little rings of the binder but it didn't work and the little light-ish blob at the bottom of the picture is me as well...so I think it counts.

I took this picture because it was my first day of Spring semester and it's been a long day. This is one of the binders for my classes. One of the many essentials of school supplies. I sure hope this semester holds good things.

Picture 365 Day 1--April 19, 2010

2010-04-19T12:54:00.001-07:00

So this first picture has nothing to do with what my post is about to inform you of. I'm just so excited that the sun is shining and summer is right around the corner. Lets hope it doesn't snow this week....ok continue reading....

So we all know how much I amor taking pictures. So I got this idea from a girl's facebook to do a picture 365....and if you couldn't guess or if you don't have a working brain at the moment that means I take a picture every day for the next year. It's kind of like a picture diary. I'm doing this for a couple reasons.
1. I want to see if I can actually commit to something.
2. I think it would be interesting to see if anything amazing happens over the next year or something to that effect.
3. I want to bore all of you peeps with my life.
So the rules are that I have to some how be in all of the pictures (sorry you have to stare at my ugliness for a whole year) and I have to take one every single day. So there you go. It's start right now Monday, April 19, 2010 and here is my first picture. Get ready for a crazy ride (Lets all hope I can stick to it!)

I took this picture because it's my last day before I start back up another semester so I was enjoying the sun and relaxing without having anything to worry about! This is pretty much what I did all day!

Fresh New Start

2010-04-18T17:11:00.000-07:00

So this past month has been a little......hmmmm shall we say rough? And I'm starting a new semester on Tuesday and I'm oh so grateful! It's never fun to start a new semester but at the same time I need it. It's also spring semester which means warm weather and lots of fun. BYU-I students who never experience spring semester are seriously missing out. Along with starting a new semester and new classes there's also been some other new things in my life that are welcoming change which I'm definitely in need of. Here are a few.....

This is the newest addition to the family. Her name is Berdy and she's a lovely little car. I get to take her to Rexburg with me and it's so nice. Now I can go to the grocery story whenever I want.

This is my new room that my parents so kindly did for me. Although I don't live at home it's nice to finally feel "at home" when I come to stay for the weekends and if you notice after almost four long years of a pain in the butt closet doors, I have door handles so I don't have to leave my closet open all the time. It's lovely! And I finally unpacked my moving boxes!

Two of those are works of art done by me that I'm pretty proud of!

YAY for being able to get in my closet!!!

I also got a new haircut and my mom dyed my hair again. We used a dye specifically for bunettes that want to go redder. I was nervous it was going to be orange but it turned out well. I got more layers in my hair and a different style.

My hair has faded a bit since doing it but you can tell the reddness in the above picture.

I pretty much am in great need of these changes. I'm hoping this semester I get all A's. So everybody should really prayer for me on that one. I'm ready for my new fresh start.

Boredom.

2010-04-05T17:12:00.000-07:00

These are the results of what happens when your teacher feels the need to completely fill the hour and half time for class by talking about absolutely nothing over and over again...I desperately needed to entertain myself with something so I busted out my phone and tried to turn something extremely boring into something semi artistic. Enjoy!

Family Pictures

2010-03-18T11:40:00.000-07:00

So we have this bare wall at my house that we all decided needed pictures on it. So we went out one day and took family pictures. We're putting a group picture in the middle and singles around it. Pretty much it's our family picture wall. This semester has been one of the most fun semesters I've ever had. We've all gotten super close and whenever anyone asks us about living in a house and if we still have a social life we say, "Well we have each other." And I'm not even kidding you. We have so much fun together so here are our family pictures we took. As you can see some of them are just silly and the one of me and the blonde girl (Kellene) is a typical family picture. The goofball in the background and the child wanting mom to stop taking pictures. The first one is one of my very favorites! (from left to right: Me, Kellene, Malorie, Alysha, Alyssa, and Jessica) Enjoy!

P.S. There was no fake laughing involved in any of these pictures. It was all very real!

Something to be proud of...

2010-03-17T00:26:00.001-07:00

So I'm usually not super proud of the pictures I take because lets face it....I'm not exactly that amazing but tonight we took "family" aka Roommate pictures and this one I have to flaunt. I didn't even have to edit this one a bunch. Just boost the colors a bit. I love it.......in fact I think I'm in love with it. I just have to tell the world or at least the blogging world how proud of myself I am. More to come later of the roommate adventure.

A Few Pictures...

2010-03-15T18:22:00.000-07:00

So I'm sitting here pretending that I don't have a crap load of stuff to do and I'm posting a blog of some pictures of my roommate Jessica. I took these a couple weeks ago. The color isn't fantastic and they aren't amazing or anything but we had fun! Enjoy!

The Testing Center

2010-02-05T10:56:00.000-08:00

You know here at BYU-I we do things a lot different then the rest of the world. (even the other BYU's) We pray at the beginning of each class, we sing at least three hymns every day, we talk about the spirit of Ricks, we bring the church into class discussions quite frequently, they shove marriage down our throats, the guys have to shave and the girls can't be skanks, and then there's this little thing called The Testing Center. I've talked to a few of my friends from other universities and whenever I mention that I'm going to the testing center they always ask questions like "What are you testing?" "What do they test there?" "So you all just go take your tests there.....together?" I guess I didn't realize how strange it was. Most universities you take the test in the classroom (which sometimes we do here) but we have a great and spacious building where we all stand in line, hand the person our i-card (the student ID card) and they hand us our test for whatever class we're there for. There are a few problems with this system and one of the biggest one's is how long the line can get. Everyone expects it to be long around mid-terms and finals week but it's usually pretty decent the rest of the days during the semester. This week I had a test that I knew was going to take me twenty minutes tops. I had studied hard and it was a written test (which I'm the bomb.com at...tell me to write a short answer question or an essay and I can whip one out in two minutes flat)so I pretty much knew I had it in the bag. I make my way to the testing center and open the door. The line is winding through this out the door and all the way down the big flight of stairs and out the outside doors. I was TICKED!!!! As soon as I got in line with two other people (one of whom tried to cut in front of me when he saw the long line...come on dude? really? One person is going to make you get there faster?) and immediately heard. "Oh you've got to be kidding me?" "Why is it like this on a Tuesday even?" "I've never seen it like this other than finals week and I've been going here three years!" They all look at me like I should be making some sort of complaint and the only thing I could say was "Ooh yeah crazy stuff!" I didn't care that the line was long. No I wasn't extremely happy that I had to wait in a thirty minute line to take a twenty minute test but lets be honest, what were we going to do about it? All we could do is wait. One more thing about this awesome testing center that really makes me happy is as soon as you get up here where all the things are winding around everyone immediately sees someone they know or someone that's taking the same test. One girl screamed across two rows of people to another girl to discuss the female organs and the talk they had in class today about the reproductive system. Another man was standing right next to another talking loud enough so everyone could hear about his crazy religion teacher that claims false things about the Bible. Of course everyone was gasping and saying "Did he really say that?" "Ooh my word not here at BYU-I!" That last one wasn't true but the guy definitely got the attention he was looking for. Meanwhile the person behind me is breathing down my neck (the one that tried to cut in front of me) and the person next to me is awkwardly staring right at me because they don't know where else to look amongst the winding back and forth. Needless to say I wasn't particularly thrilled on that Tuesday night. The only good part was I got to stare at this GORGEOUS guy in front of me for thirty minutes that smelt amazing! (I'm not creepy at all!)

So what if I'm a bad blogger?

2010-01-15T01:23:00.000-08:00

Can I just begin by saying that I'm the worst blogger ever? I know it! I can admit it. I just don't think about things that are good enough to actually blog about. So I apologize....to those two people that actually read this. Here's a little recap about whats been going on in my life. Had an awesome Thanksgiving break but was not excited to head back to Sexburg (can I say sexburg on here?) and finish classes. For some reason they decide to give us an entire week off for Thanksgiving only to come back to a week and half left in the semester. It's PURE evil I tell you. Anyways, finished off my classes after the worst semester of my entire life. I've never been through such hell in my entire life. It was very stressful and dreadful. No one could ever possibly understand what I went through. YICK! Anyways, went home for Christmas break where I enjoyed laying around and stuffing my face with food. I enjoyed spending time with my family and got some awesome presents from Santa. Unfortunately a certain brother and sister-in-law could not join in on the festivities but it was fun just the same. Also I waved goodbye to 2009. And can I just say and this might sound extremely negative but I did not enjoy 2009 AT ALL!!!! Ooh my gosh! Talk about a rough year. I was so excited to start fresh and get rid of some baggage and old feelings and just the entire year. I'll be honest. If 2009 hadn't happened at all I think I would still be just fine. Anyways, just very grateful it's all over and we get new beginnings each January to improve ourselves and set some awesome goals. I look back to my goals from 2009 and I'm glad I'm not back in that spot. I've started a new semester. I'm working hard to stay on top of class. I'm hoping to pull of all A's this semester but we'll see how it goes. Fingers crossed and I'll need prayers. I love my two Child Development teachers. They are a little on the feminine side but not so much that they seem completely gay. Obviously they are both happily married with children but they are so flamboyant and fun. I love it. My Old Testament teacher is SUPER loud and crazy but he's a hoot. He makes me see the Gospel in a whole different light that I can actually understand. It's so nice! I love my roommates this semester. We've already had a really good time together. Two of them are on their way to marriage so that's nice to see another one bite the dust. So yeah....but tonight has been somewhat of a bad night. I'm listening to Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing and I only listen to that song when I'm really down in the dumps. I had an encounter tonight that I wish I could have avoided but it was somewhat inevitable. I lie here wishing badly that I could take back a lot of things that have happened in the past year but can't wait to fix things for a better future. I have a quote about new years day that goes like this "New Year's Day is every man's birthday where he receives the gift to start over and make his life better than it was the year before." And it's so true. My life is going to be bigger and better this time around. I'm not going to make the same mistakes and let people in my life that shouldn't be there. I'm going to worry about myself and let everything fall into place around. I have very high hopes for 2010.....I sure hope it doesn't let me down. Thanks for reading! Sorry it was such a jumbled mess.

Just for a Certain Sister in Law

2009-12-20T14:34:00.000-08:00

Here are some pictures of my friend the Larsens. It was fun taking pictures for them and they were happy with the results so thats a plus. These are just a few. And does anyone else get bugged that you can only upload five pictures at a time on blogger? It bugs the heck outta me. Uhh hello Blogger how bout updating the technology once in a while? If I'm missing some trick or something please let me know. Thanks for reading!

David Archuleta?!?!

2009-11-12T09:51:00.000-08:00

This name (David Archuleta) probably rings a bell in everyone's head. If they don't know who this is then they are hobbits that don't have TVs, newspapers, magazines, internet, etc. This kid is the good ol mormon boy from American Idol and we are so lucky (cough cough gag) to have him coming to Rexburg. Ok so I'm exaggerating. I could care less that he's coming but there are a lot of boys and girls here that are peeing there pants out of excitement. Let me just tell you how this effects me. I went into the building on campus that deals with student records, where we pay fees, student employment, student funds, loans, financial aid....get the picture? So I go into this building to go pay my bookstore fee that I've left to the last minute (dad if you're reading this and looking at my bank statement that's where $180 went from my account...well some of it went to the pot I desperately needed. Ha just kidding!) I'm standing in line to pay these fees, getting annoyed because the first time I got in line and got to the window they told me they don't accept visa. Who doesn't accpet visa these days? Thats gotta be the number one card company in America but whatever I went to the ATM and got cash for the stupid onry cashier lady. So I'm standing in line for the SECOND TIME and this tall gangly weird looking boy comes up behind me and this is how the conversation went.

Funny Looking Boy (FLB): David Archuletaaaaaa (He says this to me like oooh yeah!!! David Archuleta is the bombbbb!!!)

Me: uhh....excuse me?

FLB: David Archuleta... (points to the sign that says "David Archuleta tickets sold here)

Me: ooh...uh yeah. Not for me.

FLB: WHAT?!?!? WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!?!? (says this like the cashiers office's soul purpose is to sell Mormon American Idol tickets)

Me: Well I'm just here to pay some fees that I still have. Is that alright with you?

FLB: Well yeah I guess...I'm here for David Archuleta tickets though.

Me: Ooh really? I never would've guessed.

FLB: Yeah! I'm soooo excited. I love David! (Like he knows him on a personal level and of course he missed my sarcasm)

He finally gets up to the window, purchases his ticket and as he walks away he looks right at me and screams

FLB: I GOT EM!!! I GOT EM!!!

As people turned to look at us (since he was standing right next to me screaming) I wanted to say ooh my word please stop. I don't want people to think I'm associated with you in ANY way but instead I just turned away, bowed my head, and did everything I could to avoid eye contact with this strange form of a human. Why do I constantly attract strange situations? Is it something I'm putting out there? I feel like I have a post-it note on my forehead that reads "I heart weird people!". This experience was almost as bad as the time a complete stranger started rubbing my back for no apparent reason.

Oh What a Life

2009-11-11T15:38:00.001-08:00

As I'm sitting here in our newly remodeled I guess you could call student center (Question mark?) here on BYU-Idaho campus I got to thinking about a few things. I'm sitting here reading the school newspaper, drinking my sobe, and of course people watching. There are many students sitting here or wandering by but I've come to the conclusion that I go to a very strange school. Almost to the point of having a whole different world here. Whenever I talk with my friends about things that go on, on this campus or one more thing they are making us do I scream communism really loud. Lets be honest this campus is somewhat of a communist community and I'm not really joking about that. Don't get me wrong folks. I love it here....wait I LIKE it here. It's small, the teachers are great (well most of them) they really want you to learn and will help you anyway possible, I have made great friends here and learned lots, I have a great job and it really is an over all great place or is that just what they want me to think? Am I being brainwashed to think that I'm actually enjoying all the rules? Am I really happy that I say at least five prayers a day? Do I really find it great that I have the same curfew I did when I was 16? It's an interesting thought to take into consideration. The ways of this small world are interesting to say the least. We gather for meetings called devotional (which I just read in our school newspaper that President Clark would really like us not to call it "devo" anymore...Ridiculous rules!) on Tuesday at two in the afternoon for an hour. The entire campus shuts down. No one is in sight. There are probably twenty people that are roaming around or taking naps. No classes are scheduled, the library is locked, the food places close down, the words of whoever is speaking are blared across campus so even if you decide not to go they are finding a way to get in your heads. We sing hymns at the beginning of class, we say prayers in every class even if you just prayed an hour ago in your previous class, we cant wear flip flops, no skirts passed our knees (all though that one is broken more times than it is followed) guys have to shave daily and various other forms of rules. Am I complaining or simply stating the fact that this campus if full of pure madness? Are all these students I'm watching walk around mindless drones told what to do, how to act, and who to be only to fall on their faces when thrown out into the real world, a world full of short skirts, facial hair, and the SATAN LIKE FLIP FLOPS!?!?!?!? The answer: Yes probably! Many of these students will fall on their faces but good thing I'm not one of those weirdos that gets sucked into the craziness throughout this campus! I, Ali Kunz, am not a mindless drone and will grow my facial hair as long as I want..........wait what?! Thanks for reading!

Washing D.C.

2009-11-03T00:03:00.000-08:00

Here are a few pictures from the DC trip. It was AWESOMENESS AND A HALF!!! I can't wait to go back...which I most definitely will. You can bet your boots!

Ghosts of Disneyland

2009-10-15T09:42:00.001-07:00

Disneyland is one of my favorite places on earth.....wait scratch that it IS my favorite place on earth. Ok obviously I haven't been to ever place there is but I've been to some pretty amazing places and Disneyland tops them all so when I saw this video I freaked out. Is it fake? Probably so but holy crap they did good effects if it is. But I love it. I've watched it like a billion times. I don't know why I enjoy it so much but it's my favorite. I wanted to share it with you guys. If I were a ghost I'd totally hang out in Disneyland. My favorite part is when the ghost goes through the gate of the haunted mansion. And isn't it ironic that it's coming out of the haunted mansion and headin over to pirates. Ha i just love it! Enjoy! Thanks for reading!

All Day Church

2009-10-11T20:14:00.001-07:00

You know how way back in the day they used to have sacrament meeting then everyone would go home and then everyone would come back for Sunday school and then way way way back in the day they used to have Sunday school and such on a whole different day? I've always thought oooh how horrible, to drag church out like that. Well my friends, I'm here to tell you we (living in this day and time) have to deal with something a heck of a lot worse. It's a little something I like to call "All Day Church". I'm sure many of you have experienced this wretched and horrible thing. It starts at somewhere between seven in the morning and doesn't end till around nine at night give or take a few hours. Today my day started out at 11:30 with Bishops Council then immediately proceeding this awesome get together I went to church sacrament, Sunday school, the whole long deal. Then following church I went to my Relief Society Presidency meeting (I'm the second counselor.....yay go me.........) and that got out at five. Then I had a meeting at 5:30 that was for this new BYU-I thing called student living that I'm supposed to be getting trained in but lets face it, they picked the wrong girl for the job on that one. And then at 6 I had dinner with the Bishop along with the rest of the presidency and Elder's Quorum presidency which didn't get out till around 7:30. This is a PRIME example of "All Day Church". It's horrible, it's dreadful, it's the most painful thing that ever was. Did someone sometime ago say something about not dragging out meetings on Sunday? Was that counsel over looked or am I missing the memo that we just disregard the guidance that we receive. All in all it's been the longest day ever. I'm worn out, I'm drained, it's been a rough week as is and I'm basically ready for bed and it's only nine thirty which is extremely early for me. If there was a reason for me to go inactive this would be the one. Why doesn't that Ali girl go to church anymore? She's suffering from the "All Day Church" disease!

Picture Day!

2009-10-10T23:57:00.000-07:00

So here's some pictures that I took this weekend. My boss let me rent out a camera the full weekend and some girls wanted their pictures done so we took an hour on today and played. It was really fun. These pictures aren't amazing by any means but it was just fun to take pictures again. I haven't in so long. I edited them the best I could but obviously they aren't no Emily skilled pictures. Hope you enjoy! Oooh and the old house picture. Thats just one I thought was cool. Thats a house in Hebert that my work is doing a display on and I was in charge of taking pictures. I just wanted to share that one.

I pretend to be crafty...

2009-10-03T21:10:00.001-07:00

This past week has been hell. I'll be the first to admit it. From getting the hang of this new calling in my ward, to school, then work, plus trying to be involved and keep in touch with my peeps, I was nearly worn out and finally had to bust out my handy not so handy BYU-I planner that I got for two and some change. I couldn't keep track of everything which I'm normally very good at. I called the planning queen, my mother, and asked her if anyone has invented a planner with the days as a calender. She responded oh sure and that she loves the one she has. I was desperate to find something that would help me keep track of what day was what and when I was supposed to be where. I made it my quest this weekend to find just the planner I needed. I went to Borders, Wal-Mart, and Staples with no luck. I sat in Wal-Mart frustrated trying to explain to my mom what it was that I wanted. I had the picture of the perfect planner in my head. I wanted it to be a calender in book form that had one week out of the month that I could write on but still see what day of the week it was and what not and of course I wanted it to be cute. My mother broke my heart telling me that she was pretty sure there was no such thing. But because we're Kunz's and when we can't find what we're looking for, we make it and thats exactly what we did. My mom and I went home and being the amazing woman she is she made me a little template on the amazing Print Shop and after messing with it for a while, having Print Shop crash on me once, and getting it exactly how I wanted, I think I finally got something I liked. I printed out all the months and all the weeks until the date I get out of school. I then turned it into a little book with some scrapbook paper my mom had apparently stashed away and kept from me, decorated it a little and I must say I'm very pleased with the results. Now I'm not saying it's some amazing piece of art but for being a home made planner, I think I did a pretty good job. I took a picture of what I wanted the planner to look like inside. Now everyone can know what I'm talking about. I think I should sell these to a planner company and make millions! And sorry the pictures aren't amazing quality or awesome rocking your socks pictures. My camera sucks.

New Stuff

2009-09-03T15:58:00.000-07:00

So as most of you know I'm starting a new semester and I'm freaking STOCKED!!!! I can not wait. Mostly because I can't wait to move into my NEW house with all my NEW roommates and meet NEW people ha. Lots of new! But yeah it's going to be awesome. New classes, new place, and just a new life. These last few weeks have really put some things into perspective and I've got this whole new outlook on life. I can't take it for granted anymore. I can't just go on with life trying to please everyone and not doing anything for myself which most of you who know me know that I never do things for me. Yeah that sounds like I'm asking for a gold star or a cookie but trust me it's more of a burden then something saintly. I definitely want to live. Take more risks, do fun things, be spontaneous while still finding time to be responsible. I heard a quote once that said something like so what if you're still alive at 100 years of age, that doesn't mean you've done anything special or lived your life. Sitting in your home and twiddling your thumbs is not living so that's my new goal for this semester. I'm not going to let anyone stand in the way of this. I'm going to live my life! Which is the motto for this coming semester. Also...I've made a new blog. It's kind of a project for myself and to let me thoughts out. I will still be keeping this blog up but I'm using the other one for more serious topics and personal things which is a HUGE deal to me. If you feel you'd like to read this then by all means go ahead but you read at your own risk. Also it may seem cheesy and corny but it's more of a diary then anything else and you can laugh and mock all you want but I think this will be good for me. Here is the website. It's still a work in progress but go take a look at the first post. I'm hoping to post something every night but we'll see how well that works on my quest to live! Thanks for reading! New blog: http://hopeforonlyone.blogspot.com/

Lessons Learned

2009-08-14T10:05:00.000-07:00

It's kinda late but here are my lessons learned for the month of July.

1. Miracles really do happen. I don't care who wants to argue you with me, I will take you down. I was praying for at least a C in my psychology class but knew that I would end up probably with a C- or maybe a D but as miracles go I ended up with a B-. I know you're all thinking now wait a second thats a pretty big jump from a D to a B and yes I agree. I don't know how it happened, I don't know why it happened, but I'm sure as heck not going to question it. I still add up my test scores and it just doesn't compute but whatever. Lets just hope the school doesn't call me up one day and tell me it was a mistake.

2. Along the lines of grades I've come to realize that I really can bust out a pretty good report card. I'm happy to say I got a 3.5 this semester. That is the first time I've seen those two numbers on my report card since high school. Who knew I was so smart?

3. Memorizing the family proclamation does not get you in an A in a class and definitely is not worth it. I believe I've already forgotten it.

4. Saying goodbye to brother and sister in law peeps is not as easy as it looks. Trust me.

5. You don't have to brush your teeth to avoid cavities, you just have to be born with good teeth. Ok that one isn't all the way true...alright alright it isn't true at all but sometimes thats how I feel. I'm not crazy about taking care of my teeth. I just do the regular brush morning and night, and sometimes not even at night but yet I got to the dentist and he always tells me how well I take care of them and I always laugh in my head oooh baby did I ever fool you. Besides the exposing of the roots on my bottom front teeth, my pearly whites will always be my pride and joy. Thanks mom and dad! *wink and thumbs up with big cheesy grin* EX: to your immediate right

6. I don't ever want to be left alone. EVER! I have to be surrounded by people. I always can't handle another "seven week break" in the desolate town of Rexburg. Granted I am making pretty good money and I do love my job but really do I have to be stuck in a town where all they have at the county fair is chickens and cows with the only objects I can talk to ARE the chickens and cows!? (Trust me peeps it's even worse than Bear Lake) Every morning before I open my eyes I think "Ok Ali you can do this. You can go to that library and listen to crickets with your head on your desk wish you were back in bed. YOU CAN DO IT!" Also honestly how many students really actually go to school during the break, like two!? It's a little ridiculous if you ask me. I can't wait till school starts so I can sleep in. (I'm very good and making my schedule with classes as late as possible. Go me!)

7. Foruth of July is the best holiday ever and I don't care who you are. If you're a hater then I don't think we can be friends anymore.

8. I hate people that I can't rely on. I've always been told I'm pretty responsible for my age, that I'm a pretty responsible person and I've said this before but I enjoy making plans. Thats just the type of person I am. I like to know whats coming up and where I'm going from day to day. I keep the spontaneity to a minimum. Like I said before I got it from my mother. Don't make plans with me if you aren't going to keep them, don't tell me you're ok with one plan and then last minute ditch me. I hate ditchers. I think ditchers and liars are going to be judged harshly some day. Yes we've all done it but it's something I believe you eventually grow out of but apparently some unamed people haven't yet.

9. I don't do well with people that make it known that a lot of guys are after them and then after they make a comment they oh just kidding and laugh like I'm supposed to think it's funny when I really know deep down they think they are the hott shiz that walks around and thinks guys bow down. Do you really think I care how long your list is? Yeah not really. Sorry!

10. I can't really think of another lesson and I'm too tired to try so yeah...thanks for reading.

A Thank You.

2009-07-20T21:08:00.000-07:00

As I'm sitting here reflecting on my life in the past year and the things that I have ahead of me I'd like to take a moment to put the spotlight on two of my very best friends. I feel like blogging this is appropriate because they got my started in the blogging world and I would like the world to know how amazing these to individuals are. These two people are my brother Adam and my sister-in-law Emily. I can't even begin to express the great gratitude I have for these two people that have helped me more in this last year than almost anyone else has. I'm sitting here with tear filled eyes because I just can't explain it in words what they do for me almost every single day. For those of you who don't know Emily and Adam are moving to Washington D.C. in twelve days so that Adam can attend George Washington University. As the days get closer I get more and more depressed to know that they will be approximately 2204 miles away from me. They will no longer be in the little apartment right around the corner in Rexburg, or down the street in Logan. They are going to be clear across the country. This is a very hard thing for me to deal with. I don't show emotion well but when it comes to my older brother I can't help but breakdown. I have this attachment to my brother. It's the kind of love hate relationship a lot of younger sister's have with their brothers but to me it's a lot more then that. Adam got the good grades, got the scholarships, and wowed people with his skills. He was always this high expectation that I constantly strived to reach but could never accomplish and probably never will. Adam was my silent and sometimes not so silent motivation. He's my protector and my best friend. He got frustrated when I was my sickest, he stayed up late helping me pass quizzes, made me easy mac when he knew I hadn't eaten, bought me endless amounts of food and ice cream, let me be stupid, silly, and stay up countless late nights with his wife, held me when I was so badly hurt from a certain boy, and numerous times let me vent my frustration of the world. He doesn't need an any bigger ego than he already has but he's one of the most amazing men I've ever met and the things he's going to do will one day with change the world. I'm grateful that I can call him my sibling. Emily is my adopted sister. Many know that I didn't take to kindly to miss Emily when she first entered the Kunz's lives but this girl grows on a person quite quickly. I didn't really want her taking away my older brother but she's gotten almost as close to me as Adam is. She's taught me things about boys, girl stuff, and life, laughed with me, yelled at Adam when he's being a mean older brother, watched girl movies with me, stayed up late with me talking about girl stuff, built up my confidence more than anyone else has, and helped me through some of my toughest times when no one else just couldn't quite understand. I wasn't too excited for her to have in the family at first but now I couldn't be more grateful. She truly is the big sister I never had growing up and she does an amazing job at making up for that.

I will forever be in dept to these two amazing people. They will never truly know how much I look up to them both and how appreciative I am of everything they've done for me and will continue you to do as they move across the country to live their dreams. I love you both very much and thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you've done for me over the past year and half, almost two years. The late nights, the time and money spent, and most of the fun times. There have been SO many great memories that I could go on for days talking about but I won't. I'm sad to see you guys move so far away but am so excited for you to experience so many wonderful things. I wish you so much luck and want you to be happy with this big decision. I can't wait to go to the east to see you guys. And for heaven sakes keep your phones around so I can call anytime. It's a good thing you're both family because you guys are stuck with me whether you like it or not. Thank you again! I love you!

The Concert Advenutre.

2009-07-19T19:32:00.001-07:00

So hillary and I went to the Fray concert. Also Jacks Mannequin was there and so wasMeese. I was very much excited for Jacks Mannequin. That band is freaking AMAZING!!!! Andrew McMahon as MAD piano skills. Like seriously.I had goose bumps. He rocks my world pretty much. Also The Fray was awesome like always. They played all my favorites. There's just something about Isaac Slade's voice that sends chills down my spine. He is however a little strange. I'll say that about him. He was doing odd things on the stage. Not like crazy odd but it made you go "Uh what is he doing?" The trip was really fun. We had no idea how to get there so we did get a little lost. Hence the sad face picture. It was bloody hot outside thats for sure. We ended up sitting on the ground in the shade of the seats before the concert started. We had a lot of sweat running off of us. I'm doing this a little out of order but we also made shirts before we left. We tie-dyed and then painted them. It was way fun and a few people made comments about them. My roommates are jealous (: We stood in line in front of these very strange girls. You know just those type of people that you just can't explain why they are strange unless you're standing there listening to them talking about weird things. We snuck in snacks and munched on those. Hillary got in trouble for filming a video on her camera. We sat next to an awkward couple. Also there were a ton of older people there. Like 40's and older. Very odd! Some grandma was shaking her booty the entire time and you could tell she wanted to sing along with the songs but didn't know the words. Poor little grandma. There was also an older couple. Well the guy was older, probably my father's age and the girl was probably thirty and they were practically making babies right in the audience. I believe I puked in my mouth a little. All in all it was one amazing experience. I enjoyed it very much and was happy I got to see some of my favorite bands live and it pretty good seats too! Thanks for reading!

Lessons Learned

2009-07-10T15:43:00.000-07:00

1. Stick to the same box of hair dye that you always use. You know it works. You know you like it, You know that Wal-Mart carries it. Why do you insist on buying hair dye from Broulims when it's not your brand and it's more expensive?

2. Change is good. Even though I hated my hair color at first and I wanted to cry after I chopped off all my hair I'm actually really loving both. My hair color is WAY less black, my cut is really cute, and my head has lost like ten pounds of weight from all my thick hair. I was terrified but change really is good.

3. If you haven't exercised in months then don't be thinking that you can ride your bike up a big hill and have it be easy. I learned this the hard way. Riding a one speed bike up a very large hill TAKES WORK!!!

4. I attract awkward situations, did I just learn that this month? No! I learned that years ago but I've been in a lot of awkward situations this past month, none of which were very fun.

5. I'm a nerd. Not in the definition of nerd like I wear classes and carry around a calculator although I do very much love math...ah see point proven. I love math, I love to read, and learn new things. I'm a complete and total nerd but at least I'm not beat up on the playground.

6. I'm good at making books. Not really a lesson learned but it's a new found skill and should be on the list. We made books at work a few weeks ago and if you're asking yourself Why? because that doesn't sound like work then I'll explain..If we know how a book is made then we can fix one. It's so fun and I love doing it. I made three!

I think that pretty much raps up my lessons learned for the month of June. Can't really think of anything else. Kind of a lame list this month but oh well. Guess I didn't do much learning. Thanks for reading!

When it rains...it pours

2009-06-30T12:24:00.000-07:00

On top of everyone and their dog dying this past week I had a little bit of a hair disaster. Most of you probably read my post when Hillary and I died our hair brown/red and it turned out to be a really good experience. A week after school started I dyed my hair the same color and again it turned out beautiful and I loved it. So last night I told Jessica that I wanted to dye my hair again and she was all sorts of willing to do it. I went to Broulims (Even though I kept telling myself just to go to Wal-Mart because it's cheaper and has the brand I like but Jessica's car is having issues up the wazoo so Broulims had to do) and bought a different brand of hair dye then I normally use. The girl's hair looked the same color as the other box, the results of those little sample pictures looked the same, and she looked just as happy as the other girl so I thought for it would turn out the same. This my friends is completely and totally FALSE! This is the result of the horrible awful hair dye that I purchased and as much as everyone can tell me it looks fine and that they like it they are LIARS!! I know it doesn't look good, I know I look like I freak, and I know that everyone is wishing for my gorgeous brown hair back (ok maybe thats only me) needless to say, I hate it with a passion. Luckily my hair fades quickly and this picture was taken only a few hours after it being dyed but still. It's definitely not a pretty color. It's black/purple...not brown/red. Also in the middle of dying my hair we ran out of hair dye and my roommate (very unwillingly) ran out to buy some more. I aplogized from the bottom of my heart for interrupting her study time, (but it's not like I asked her to run out and buy me a snack) and I would repay her in cookies or some sort of other form of yummy food. I also found out that my grade in psychology is probably not going to be as good as I hoped but that's nothing compared to the hair crisis (just kidding mom if you're reading this) I'm hoping this week gets better. I only have one more day of school this week and then it's 4th of July PAR-TAY time, which is always grand and exciting. I very much love this holiday. Cross your fingers that my week doesn't go anymore down hill then it already has. Thanks for reading!

RIP My Friend

2009-06-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

After Michael Jackson stole Farrah Fawcett's thunder, shocked the world yet again, and took over radio stations across America for twenty four hours straight, the real tragedy hit. Billy Mays passed away at 7:45 a.m. on Sunday morning, causes unknown. As much as I enjoyed Michael Jackson's music, it just can't compare to the persuasive voice of Billy Mays. For those of you who know me well I'm the #1 fan of infomercials. I love them, I'm drawn to them, I even watch the infomercial channel at my parents house for entertainment. (call me a freak if you must) They are my absolute favorite and although Michael Jackson was the king of pop, I think we can all agree that Billy Mays was the king of commercials and he was one of my heros. Between his powerful voice and his happy attitude, you had to be hooked. There were many people out there that bashed poor Billy, calling him annoying and obnoxious but I believe that good ol Bill had a powerful message (or maybe a few) to share with the world. So to you Billy Mays I raise my container of Oxy Clean. You will never be replaced in my heart nor in the wonderful world of infomercials. Farewell my friend! What will the world do without you screaming at us to purchase Orange Glo!

p.s. I only did this because my lovely brother Adam posted an awkward post about good ol MJ

Showing Off

2009-06-22T13:52:00.000-07:00

I just need to show the blogging word how amazingly wonderful my sister-in-law Emily is. She has mean photo shop skills and she total knows it. Of course she knows it, how could she not? But for those of you who don't know I'm showing off these pictures because 1. I look hott and 2. I do not look this amazing in person like ever so you know that Emily's photo shop skills are the bomb diggity dog! I'm just so proud of her! ha love you Emily! I'm glad you like practicing on me and I get picture FO FREE!!! And by the time me and the fam come visit you guys in Washington you better have scoped out all the good spots and plan on taking me to them. I demand it! (: Thanks for reading!

Lessons Learned

2009-06-16T13:08:00.000-07:00

Alright here are the lessons learned for the month of May!

1. First impressions are tricky. Never judge a book by it's covered. I had impressions of all my roommates when I first moved in and those impressions have drastically changed. Some for the better and some for the worst. I've found a new friend in my roommate Jessica. We were basically MEANT to room together. It's amazing!

2. I'm way more capable than I let myself think.

3. I'm ADDICTED to Grey's Anatomy. I'm seriously obsessed. I started watching them from season one till the end and I love it!

4. I'm still sitting in that stage of life where I am totally and completely confused. I'm pretty much ready to get out of that stage of life but I don't think it'll be happening any time soon.

5. I love my family more than any people in this whole world. Yes I don't always show it and yes sometimes they get on my last nerve but I miss them all the time here. Especially my mom. I'm definitely a momma's girl.

6. There are just people that are always going to be in your life. No matter what you do or what you say they will always be there and maybe they are just supposed to be and you have to deal with it.

7. I'm super sensitive. I never used to be or at least I never thought I used to be but just in last nine to ten months I've turned into this emotional and sensitive girl with.....FEELINGS!!! Shocking I know!

8. School is so overrated but yet it's something I know I have to do and deep down I sort of enjoy it.

9. Girls are so STUPID!!! I can't believe how dumb and annoying some females are. There are some girls that I just wish I could tackle to the floor and strangle until they are blue in the face. I hate them!!! I hope I have all boys!

10. Keep track of your pillow when you stay at hotels

Thats all I got to say for now. Thanks for reading!

Singin in the Rain

2009-06-10T22:39:00.000-07:00

My roommate Jessica, my little sidekick, had NEVER puddle jumped. It was pouring rain Tuesday night and I said "Hey jessica lets go puddle jumping tonight." She responded, "What is that?" I responded in shock and disbelief and pointing out that the name was pretty much self explanatory and after a little convincing she was in. After waiting till midnight to go through the painful process of registering for classes we got in sweats and headed out. I couldn't find battery's for my camera so we used Jessica's retro Cannon SLR with black and white film. All the pictures turned out pretty bad and blurry because the camera struggled a bit. Here were the ending results. We think they're pretty sweet. Take a good look at the last one that deformed our faces. It's amazing! Thanks for reading!

Pillow Found

2009-05-31T17:13:00.001-07:00

Yes yes YES!!!! I got my pillow back! Just when I thought all was lost, the heavens opened up, and the sun shone through. I was lying on the grass in "The Gardens" on campus and the thought came to me to go back to the hotel and ask about it again. The night manager last night was one of those people that lacks a brain. You know the type, everyone does. So I went back to the motel and right after I said I left my pillow here to the lovely amazing lady at the desk, she knew EXACTLY what I was talking about. She came around the corner with my missing friend and nearly jumped over the counter and kissed her. I thank you many times and walked out the door screaming to my roommate "I GOT IT! I GOT IT!!!" Jessica (the roommate) was just as excited. The ending to this day is turning out much better than last night. No creepy guys (yet...knock on wood) and my pillow is back in my life ready to be slept on. Call me crazy but life is good when your favorite pillow comes back. Thanks for reading!

DISTRESS!!!!!!!

2009-05-31T00:40:00.000-07:00

Today started out to be an awesome day. I woke up from an awesome sleep at the motel mi madre and I stayed at. Got ready, had a good breakfast, listened to my old religion teacher talk about how AWESOME BYU-Idaho is, went to comic frenzy and laughed my face off, ate Bajios, and went to Idaho Falls with my roommate Jessica and got a purse from pac sun that was free because of a gift card and then the distraught happened. First off I have a blister from my awesome new sandals that are not so awesome anymore, me and jessica saw her ex-fiance at the park flirting with some chica, I went to my roommates birthday party and attracted a creepo stalker, and I'm not kidding you I expect this guy to be around every corner as I walk to class. He's the typical BYU-I CREEPO!!!! I can't emphasize this enough when I say CREEP...genuine weirdo. I won't go into detail because some of you will fear for my safety but it was sooo bad...., and then FINALLY....I LEFT MY PILLOW AT THE HOTEL!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously people I'm sooo distraught right now. It has been my favorite pillow since forever. I'm not even kidding you. That pillow has been everywhere with me. It had real feathers, and was sooo soft and I just was very much in love with this pillow. I miss it ): I went to the hotel and no luck. They looked at me like I was a crazy woman. I was near tears talking to the guy and I'm about ready to bawl just thinking about it. It had a sentimental value to it. I just can't explain this enough people!!!!! I'm soooooo sad!!! Why not the crap didn't the cleaning ladies see that pillow and realize it didn't match!?!? It's like what the shiz peeps??? I know I sound like I'm totally overreacting but I'm kinda a mess. Hopefully I'll find another...that can replace this deep, deep hole in my heart. Goodbye pillow. You will forever be missed. I'll think about you as I cry myself to sleep on my other pillow that is not near as good ):

Maybe

2009-05-25T15:27:00.001-07:00

I've had probably one of the best weekends of mt entire life. I've seen old friends, my roommate has been gone all weekend, and I've enjoyed life. Now that's it's over I'm sitting here wondering about my life. I'm sitting here wanting to cry until I have no energy left and I'm dehydrated. I'm at this crossroads and I don't know which road to take. It's like I'm Robert Frost and I have no guidance what so ever. I'm very much enjoying school this semester. I struggled at first with the whole roommate thing again but turns out one of the girls Jessica is a really great person to confide in. She's been through a lot of the same things and we're pretty much at the same point in our life. I love every single one of my classes and I'm doing well in each of them. I'm slowly getting my life back on track where it should be but there's just this one thing that still gets to me and still has power over me. I sometimes wish I could go back in time and change just one thing. Make one thing happen differently and maybe my life would be a little less complicated. I don't know why I have to go through this thing or why I have to faced with such confusion but yet..here I am. Stuck in the middle between a rock and hard place with absolutely no idea what to do about it. Life always seems to come at my full force. I never just have a day that semi complicated. It's either all or nothing. These last few months have been full of stress and torment that seems almost endless. There's so much more that I wish I could share with someone and they would completely understand but seeing how a select few people read this blog, I have to keep it to myself. Maybe one day I'll have my life figured out. Maybe one day I'll wake up and everything will be good and I'll have EXACTLY what I want and everyone will be happy. Maybe one day I'm going to wake up with a big smile on my face, take a big deep breath, and say "Life is good!".....maybe

Party Like It's 2006

2009-05-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

So this last saturday Hillary came to Rexburg for the day and we had a blast. We both needed a whole day with eachother. It was nice to have a whole day with my best friend. We went to the library searching for men for hillary, we tye-dyed shirts, and just had a fun day! Here are some pictures of oure eventful day and a list of my favorite things about our friendship. We think we're pretty cool. The last picture is my favorite so make sure to take a look! Thanks for reading.

1. We can sit in silence for an hour, lost in our own thoughts, and it's not even awkward. In fact we forget that we've sat in silence for that long. I don't think Hill notices this but I do.

2. We can tell eachother when we look stupid, smell bad, or are making fools our ourselves.

3. We know how to make eachother laugh.

4. We have the same taste in music

5. We can tell eachother anything and we know there are no judgements. Hillary knows me deep dark secret and I know it safe.

6. We've been through thick and thin...friend drama, boy drama, and all the other drama that comes with being a girl.

7. We depend on eachother. I know that I could call her up bawling and she wouldn't have to even know why but she'd just listen to me cry and tell me everything would be alright.

8. We act like complete and total idiots around eachother and feel very comfortable doing it.

9. I have her back, she has mine. Hurt her and I kick your trash!

and finally....

10. We just get eachother...nuff said!

Lessons Learned

2009-05-12T22:41:00.000-07:00

So...I'm a few days behind on my lessons learned for the month of April but here it is. Coming at to you live from my bed in Rexburg, ID (woot woot)

1. I'm a lot cleaner person then I thought. My room has always been the messy one in the Kunz household but I'm beginning to realize that some cleanliness genes were really passed down from my parents. If it's not my mess though I ignore it. Heck no I'm not gonna do your dishes. It's funny because the roommates will let the dishes pile up and i'll feel guilty cuz I haven't done them and then I think wait...not one item in this sink is mine. This is NOT my responsibility. Call me selfish if you want but if everyone picked up after themselves there would not be a problem. We had clean checks tonight and no body understands the concept of just picking up your own crap.

2. I tend to take care of other's problems before my own. I've always been like this and probably always will be. This isn't really a new lesson, I've always known that I'm constantly trying to help peeps with their problems but I've learned it more in the last month than ever. There's a quote from a song that goes "Tired of fighting all the battles in the world except my own." Thats how I feel. Everybody comes to me to vent and ask for encouragement but where's the person that I'm supposed to run to for help, advice, and upliftment!? (thats not even a word I don't think)

3. My father will never let go of his children. He will always feel the need to hover, guide and protect. Keep in mind all of us are in our twenties but yet he still feels the need to treat us as if we're ten. It's getting old rather quickly. Kind of annoying but apparently I've got to deal with it for the rest of my life.

4. Rexburg is NOT the same without Adam and Emily. Sorry peeps but I just miss you loads. Every single day I think of something random that reminds me of our great memories.

5. I have insomnia. Every night i make a goal. Ok tonight I"m gonna get some sleep. Tonight I wanted to go to bed at 10:30. It is now 11:53. Go me for reaching my goals and dreams.

6. Call me a nerd, call me a geek, but I get excited over genealogy and old stuff. I work in special collections now in the library and I'm fascinated that i get to touch a Book of Mormon from 1830. I mean seriously peeps. Joseph Smith himself could've sneezed on that exact same Book of Mormon. I'm also excited about genealogy since the new program came out and my family makes fun of me. Sad but true.

7. If my husband snores, then I'm definitely investing in ear plugs. My roommate snores ever single night and one night she was completely silent. I thought to myself..."Why is it so quiet in here!?" I thought for a second and immediately sat up in bed and looking at my roommate. "She's not breathing!!! She's died." Luckily she gurgled and I knew we were back on track and I (thank the Lord) did not have to do mouth to mouth. On the plus side though she's asleep in like point two seconds and if I assume correctly, she'd sleep through a marching band playing in our room.

8. I hate people who take showers for longer than 15 minutes. I hate showers. I hate them with a passion. I think they are a chore and a pain in my ace. Don't worry I shower every single day but I don't enjoy one minute of it. I kid you not that my roommate takes like 45 minute showers. Meanwhile I have to pee like a race horse and the other bathroom is occupied. She's seriously going to turn into water one day. What more do you have to do once you've washed your hair, your body, and an occasional shaving of the legs!? Come on peeps! Move on with life. There's more out there then hot water drizzling on your face.

9. The majority of the boys at BYU-I are strange. Completely and totally strange. There are probably 10% here that are not strange. I don't remember fall and winter having such weirdos (don't get me wrong there were plenty to go around, just not as much) so possibly it's summer thing.

10. I'm not going to survive the rest of the summer without a car. Nuff said!

11. Boys are icky.

12. I will never know how to spell the word definately...notice i spelled it wrong. It should not be definitely. Screw the English language!

That concludes the Lesson Learned portion for this evening. I hope you enjoyed reading and come back soon...in a month. Because apparently I'm horrible at keep this thing updated lately. Thanks for reading!

Ooh one more...

2009-05-01T13:42:00.000-07:00

So umm..I'm sick! Like deathly sick..and I keep thinkin it's the swine flu because guess what? There's been four possible cases and guess where two of them were? Yep thats right...Madison County. I'm so lucky (: Anyways..it's probably not the swine flu but I'm in bed..and wasting time watching youtube videos and I saw this a while ago and thought i should share another video with my peeps in the blog world. First off if you don' t love Jon Schmidt then you're crazy because he's freakin amazing and second of all this song gives me goose bumps every time I hear it. Enjoy!
p.s. sorry it's a weird long shape...i dunno why it's like that.

The Ultimate Wedding Dance

2009-05-01T11:18:00.000-07:00

So basically this video is the shiz and so is this couple. I want to do something like this at my wedding. Enjoy!

WHAT A WEEK!!!!

2009-04-19T10:25:00.000-07:00

Here's a little recap of my most recent week. It's been real it's been crazy...it's been real crazy.

Sunday: I wake up...feeling a little yucky. My body ached and I had a headache. I complained to my mom hoping to get some sympathy but the only reaction I got was "Ali we all feel that way today after working in the yard" (what we did all day saturday..not fun) I brushed it off thinking thats all it was. Sore from working in the yard, tired, not wanting to go to church...the usual sunday morning feeling. Sunday night hit and I was not feeling myself. I was cold, then hot, my body felt like any minute it was going to fall to pieces.

Monday: I wake up and totally and completely feel like crap. I had barely got any sleep the night before...mostly from all the fever dreams I kept having and also because my body kept changing temperatures. I couldn't move, I could eat because my throat hurt so bad. It was like something had attacked my body over night.

Tuesday: I feel even worse. I don't feel any better. I call into the school and tell them I am not coming into tutor because I'm lying in bed waiting for the angels to come take me "home" Ok I didn't say that but thats about how I felt. I was miserable and still not able to eat. Even liquid was hard to swallow. But that night..I'm standing in the bathroom and I feel my fever break. You're going what!? You don't know ali! But yes i do. I felt my body completely change and a bunch of color rush to my face. It was the weirdest thing.

Wednesday: I'm feeling much better and go to tutoring. I'm not one hundred percent but I can at least hold my head up. Still not eating anything though. All I did was play games with the kids because I had no patience to hear them struggle through a book..especially the girl from Haiti who just sits there and guesses. Drives me NUTS!!!

Thursday: I finally start packing up my junk and getting things ready for rexburg. I also had to tutor this day and totally spaced it and forgot about this group of boys that I listen to. Who does that!? One of them saw me in the hall and said "What are you doing here? You forgot about us." Thats when I realized that I indeed had forgotten and played it off like I meant to. Oops! I went shopping with my mother for about three hours and nearly went nuts. We bought a ton of shiz for the move.

Friday: Nothing amazing happened. I took treats to my kids which they all jumped for joy for. Partied with my girls one last time and that was pretty much it.

Saturday: The big day!!!! I woke up super early nervous as heck for what was about to come. Adam and Emily show up to my house and hour later then when we had said (surprise surprise...ha love ya guys but you know you're always late) and we pack up all my stuff, hug the mother, and head to rexburg.

Here's what my apartment is like. TONS OF STORAGE SPACE!!!! I don't even have enough crap to put in every crevice that my room has. It's so weird...but yet my roommate has enough junk to take up every inch of space they give her. She's a little cluttery! And she snores. Her name is Elizabeth, she's from Texas, she's 26 and this is her last semester. I found out she has not served a mission....So then..what has she been doing!!?!?!?? The question is still unknown. Then there is Kayla. Nice girl! She's from canada. I believe she is 20 but I'm not sure. She's very social, loves to play basketball..she's talked about it a few times and I think she's boy crazy. I just met Tasha and Tambry..or Tamry or Tembry..something. I don't even know. They are not twins but they seem like they are pretty tight! They look a little on the oddish side..but I guess we'll see. I know nothing about them because they just showed up like thirty minutes ago. They both have reddish hair...thats pretty much it. Last but not least there is Jessica. She is originally from Colorado but her family moved to Logan around six months ago. She has a lot of fancy clothes and I saw her with handfuls of shoppin bags yesterday from expensive stores. I think she weighs the same as my thigh. She's super skinny!! She's also 20...I think. All the roommates are either 19 or 20 except for Elizabeth. Jessica doesn't seem super friendly.

So thats the whole crew. Apartment 17! It's gonna be an interesting semester. The showers are SUPER small and have no where to put shampoo because it used to be a guys apartment. It's nicer than my old apartment and it seems a tad bit cleaner but not a ton. Kitchens gross me out so I don't spend that much time there. School starts tomorrow so I'm sure I'll be posting about that. All in all I think I'm gonna be ok. I've got bright hopes for this semester so hopefully something amazing happens. Thanks for reading!

A little fact...

2009-04-10T12:09:00.001-07:00

Just to let everyone know...my last Lesson Learned post was on March 10th and this one was on April 10th DUNT DUNT DUNT!!!!....does that freak anyone else out!? I totally didn't plan that. WEIRD!!!

Lessons Learned

2009-04-10T11:48:00.000-07:00

So here are my lessons learned/things I've come to know for the month of March!

1. I love my family a lot more when I am not around them everyday. (which is why it's a good idea to move out) When we went to California I nearly killed them. I love them to death..don't get me wrong but seeing them every single day, being with them 24 hours, for a week...wow!!! That got old real fast. I was definitely ready to get back home and lock myself in my room for a few hours just to be alone.

2. I should've gotten a lap top sooner...enough said.

3. I am realizing more and more that child psychology is totally my calling in life. I am going to miss the kids that I tutor when I move to Rexburg. I've gotten so attached to their cute faces, snotty noses, and silly things they say. I'm meant to work with children. That's all there is to it.

4. I hate hate HATE change. Seriously why can't everything just stay the same...because boys and girls that would be stupid. But I just hate having to adjust to new things. I get to comfortable with how things used to be. I think that's why my mom had the worst labor ever when I was born. I didn't want to leave something comfortable. I've hated change since I was brought into this world. And it's probably why my mother stopped having children. But every time something changes, I adjust, and I realize that things are just not that bad.

5. I think that when it comes to friendships, I forget people's mistakes too easily. I just hate giving up a friendships for a mistake someone has made. A person can be a complete jerk to me and I'll still be nice to them. I might get angry but I'd never let them know that. Sometimes I think that can be a definite flaw. Maybe I should work on that.

6. I hate money.

7. I don't want to go up to Rexburg without Adam and Emily...nor do I want them to move to Washington..or wherever it is they end up.

8. Marriage is something I'm TOTALLY and COMPLETELY not ready for right now. I had a friend call me bawling because of her husband and all I kept thinking was 1. Guys are jerks no matter what and that fact will never change. Even when you've been married 50 years. It's natural for a guy to be rude. Thats just the way it's going to be. 2. I don't want that right now...I don't want to have to worry about someone else. I can barely take care of myself as it is...let alone another human and male!

9. Eat fiber...it's good for you and helps with the whole system.

10. I'm not as strong as I think I am...or come across to people. (if that sentence didn't make sense I'm sorry) I put on this tough gal exterior but I'm such a little wimp it's not even funny.

That's what I learned for the month of March or what has come to me during the month of March. Thanks for reading!

Soooo bored!

2009-04-06T07:49:00.000-07:00

So I was super bored on my way to California and on my way home....and here are the results. Enojoy!

News, News, News, and did I mention News!?

2009-04-02T11:06:00.000-07:00

So first of all...MY LAP TOP HAS ARRIVED!!! WOOT WOOT!!! YAY!!!! It arrived last Friday but I have been on vaca for the last week and didn't have time to post anything. It's absolutely B-E-A-UTIFUL!!! I love it with all my heart and I will take care of it like it was my own offspring. I'm so excited to have it. It's gorgeous and shiny and I can't say it enough..I ♥ it!!!! So that's one bit of news..the other is I just got home from California with the family where I'm happy to report sunny skies and warm weather. It was amazing there! It was shorts and flip flops the entire time. I came home with a freakin sweet flip flop line (my all time favorite tan line) and a nice tan everywhere else. I was sad to come home to a snow filled lawn and thirty degree weather. Seriously it's April and it's still continues to snow. We all had a very good time in Cali except for the morning we were heading home when my father confesses that he feels like he has the flu. Any of my family members will say that when Scott Kunz says he's sick...it's the end of the world. Time stops, cars come to a screeching halt, and everyone awaits the arrival of his death. My father is so extreme when it comes to illness. He really makes it sound like he'll be in the grave any minute. Sad to say that our vaca was cut short because he wanted to drive all the way home instead of stopping in St. George to get a room. So arriving home one day early, I hop out of the car and immediately start cursing the heavens and kicking the snow. I'm blasted sick of it people! Now in other news I have finally been approved for loans to take up to school so it's officially official now. I only have a short little while until I'll be up in rexburg, trekking up that stupid hill, and blowing in the insane wind. I'm praying I don't end up with pneumonia again this year. Also my ward got a new bishop..not that anyone really cares on here but it nearly broke my heart..in fact i think it cracked it a little. I hate change and my old bishop was definitely one amazing guy. This new guy has some ginormous shoes to fill. Anyways...I believe that pretty much covers everything that's happened in the last week. I can't think of much else to share with you people. Thanks for reading!

Old News

2009-03-22T17:46:00.000-07:00

So this is old news...probably like a month ago but I'm bored and need something to post so hillary and I decided to dye our hair one night and when we got to the store we picked out a color that looked purplish red..we were pretty excited and a little worried what the color was going to turn out to be. But we took a chance and had a ton of fun doing it. Of course my thick mop took two boxes and about an hour to get covered completely but in the end we were happy with our results...here's a few pictures of the whole process.

before picture

we look hott!!!!

BLUHHH-DUH!!!!

I stabbed her head!

Hillary had an accident through out the whole process...just kidding! That was hair dye...

This is probably the worst picture hillary and I have ever taken so don't judge us...just look at our hair!

Anyways...the color is pretty much gone now and it took hillary's hair WAY better than mine. My color was gone in like a day but her's is still pretty red. I guess that's just my luck! But it was a fun night for sure! Thanks for reading!

CAN I GET A WOOT WOOT!?!?!?

2009-03-17T19:16:00.000-07:00

So emily hates it when I say woot woot...but I use it when I'm real excited about something and I'm real excited about something. My father FINALLY ordered me a lap top from dell and I'm about ready to pee my pants like a little puppy...except minus the pants part because puppies don't wear pants. BUT I'M STOKED!!!! It's got a 3GB memory and 320GB hard drive. It was orignially 725 bones and we got it for 480..of course minus taxes...It's black just because I thought it was silly to pay an extra 30 bucks for red but who cares!? I finally have a computer of my VERY OWN!!!! I wish I could take a picture of my face or film a video to show how excited I am but that might be embarrassing and I'd regret it later like the time Adam posted a video of Emily on drugs after she got her tonsils out...(hilarious by the way..I'll send you the link if anyone wants to watch it..haha JK emily! JK!!!...ha jk..who even says Jk..I even hate jk and I just used it...) ANYWAYS....The lap top will be here in like a week-ish maybe longer and I'm definately taking pictures and posting them. Watch it be like a piece of crap computer and all my hopes and dreams are thrown out the window...Pray for me and my computer! Alright ya'll just wanted to share the exciting news! Thanks for reading!

Lesson Learned

2009-03-10T14:08:00.001-07:00

There's a few things I've learned in the last few days that that I think I should share with the world or rather the two people that glance at my blog every once in a while...

Lessson #1: No one will ever know all the mysteries of this crazy world...no matter how smart they are, how old they are, or how many times they've put their nose in a book. I always thought when I was younger that once you hit a certain age you just knew everything. I thought in first grade that once I graduate high school I'm gonna every piece of information there is to know. That my friends...is false thinking! And I was probably still thinking that way at 16...hence all the fights with my parentals.

Lesson #2: If a person dwells on the little mistakes that peeps make, that person will never have friends and will live a lonely meaningless life. We aren't all perfect. We've all had those moments when we go "DOE!!! Put foot in mouth now" As humans we say stupid things without thinking and trust me I have PLENTY of experience in this area. If a friend happens to say something offensive or idiotic, don't judge him/her for that one silly comment, judge him/her for the good times you've shared and the many pleasant things they do for you.

Lesson #3: I've just found out that I'm a planner. Whether I picked that up from my mother who single handily plans road trips down to the very second or I just picked up at least one OCD thing from my father, I've learned that I need a plan when it comes to certain things. Obviously I can't plan my entire life but I like to make plans to hang out or decide on one thing...and STICK TO IT!!!!

Lesson #4: Trust is something that can all be lost in one split second and it's a horrible feeling. I've learned that I need to be more hard core when it comes to who I trust and who I give my feelings out to. I've always been one of those people that thinks "All people are good, no one would ever hurt me" But I've come to realize that, that is SOOOO not true. Not everyone is good! And people do hurt other people. I definitely have trust issues now...which could be a good or bad thing.

Lesson #5: No matter how many times I scream at the heavens, cry myself to sleep, or dwell on matters, things don't change. Life is going to be whatever the heck it wants to be no matter how hard I try to change things or how angry I get at the horrible situations I'm put in. I can change who I am..but I can't change anything else. Whatever will be...will be. I need to throw up my hands and let whatever happens to just happen and enjoy every minute of the ride.

Lesson #6: Family is and should be every one's number 1 priority! I've always taken for granted what my family does for me. Yes they definitely get on my nerves, Yes sometimes the parents STILL don't understand where I'm coming from, and yes sometimes I just want to scream, kick them in the shin, and run away...but deep down I know they love me and I love them (that sounded like a five year old testimony in sacrament) They've helped me out a lot these last few weeks and for that I thank them VERY much. I guess I have never really understand how much they really care about me and know what I deserve. It's taken twenty years and it'll probably take a few more to get it set in stone but at least I get the hint.

Lesson #7: Non commital make outs are the best thing in the entire world besides puppies!

Lesson #8: I ♥♥♥♥♥ taking pictures!!! I've always had a knack for it...or so people would always tell me but oh my gosh I can't believe how much I love it...I hope one day I get as nice as camera as Emily and can take pictures anytime I want. I'll have to save my pennies but I love it so much. Even if people don't like the pictures I take...I still love doing it. It's a nice little hobby!! I hope I can pursue it.

Lesson #9: I need to learn to take care of myself before other people. I have a horrible habit of putting everyone before me and neglect myself. And that sounds cocky and self praising..like I want everyone to give me gold stars and cookies for helping people...but that's not it at all. I just have figured out that I need to work on personal issues before I can solve anyone else's.

Lesson #10: Working with little kids for the rest of my life is the best decision I could have ever made. I started working as a volunteer at the elementary school, which I believe Adam is still laughing at for some odd reason..apparently I'm not "service" oriented...whatever the heck that means...anyways I love it!!! It's soooo fun to help them and hear what they have to say. It's one of the little joys in my boring little life.

Anyways...those are my lessons learned for the month of February ish. Obviously some of them weren't lessons...they were more like this is whats up sorta thing. Thanks for reading!

To that person...

2009-02-25T15:02:00.000-08:00

For me, and for some others, it's hard to put my thoughts out in the open. To voice exactly what I'm feeling. I never know how to truly express myself which has caused problems and sometimes helped me in the past, but yet I have no problem voicing my opinion on other matters...just as long as it doesn't involve how I'm feeling inside. My blog is like my journal and the people that read it are close enough to my heart that I wouldn't care them knowing what I'm going through so here it is... I've been through a lot in my short little life of 20 years. I've experienced more things than any typical Mormon girl, raised in a good Mormon family. I've done things my parents would approve of and I've made mistakes I never want to make again but this is by far the hardest pain I've ever had to endure...Recently I was slammed into one of the most heart breaking situations I've ever been put in. It hit me like a ton of bricks. Like my whole world had come crashing down on top of me and was cutting off my air supply. It felt like the time I got pneumonia and I honestly felt like the world's largest man was sitting on my chest. And yet I knew I had come down with pneumonia again but I definitely was and still am suffering..My life motto has always been "Things happen for a reason" and there's so many quotes off the movie Now and Then (which I highly recommend to all girls around the world...well that are at least 15) that have been running through my head these last few days..here are a few...

"If you don't fall in love, you can't get hurt. But it sure is lonely all by yourself."
"You can run from the disappointments you're trying to forget. But its only when you embrace your past that you truly move forward."
And my favorite...
"Things will happen in your life that you can't stop, but that's no reason to shut out the world. There's a reason for the good and the bad."

I've had a rough couple of days, probably the roughest days I've had in a long time. There's been constant tears, breaking of things, screaming to the heavens, and kneeling down to my Heavenly Father humbly BEGGING for help or something to comfort me. I'm trying to be strong, I'm trying to tell myself that everything will be ok, and I'm even putting on a fake smile and voice around people so they don't know I'm hurting but when I'm alone I bawl, scream, and shake from sadness and frustration. Here is a poem I wrote probably a year ago...I don't remember why and I don't think I really had a specific reason but it's very fitting now and I'd like to share it.

Dear Lord
I need a blessing
I need a little help
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I know I've made mistakes but I'm begging for some hope
I've almost reached an end
I'm sick of being used-beat down so far-
I'm getting abused
My heart gets hurt & my hands always shake
whenever I reach for what I think is real.

I'm thankful for my life
The tears that no one sees
The smiles that are shared
I'm thankful for the people,
the ones who made me. . .me,
the ones who showed me kindness
& the ones who only showed me hell
I'm thankful for unexpected friends
the ones I never thought I'd love
I'm thankful for my past
for what I'm living
& what's to come.

Bless me to be a better person
A better sister, daughter, & friend.
Bless my family that's so dearest to my heart
Bless the boys who've hurt me
& the only one that cares.
Bless those friends who struggle
& who I most depend.
Bless those good friends
The ones that are always there
I never want to loose them Lord
Let them know I'm sorry & I care.

I'm sorry to one's I've hurt.
That boy I just couldn't love.
The friends I've betrayed
& the lies I've told to the ones that I love
I'm sorry to everyone I couldn't help
to the one's I disappointed && had to let down.

I hope this isn't the end
the best it's gonna get.
I'm not happy Lord, but I'm moving along
I try to take one step without tripping.
I try to help as many as I can.
Sometimes I get used, I get trampled, without a thanks or hand.

Someday I wanna change.
Someday I'll change the world.
I hope I've done something.
I hope I've done some good.
I hope someone is thankful
for the effort I put forth
for my help, love, faith, && support
I hope I've effected
some life. . .in some way.

I'm not asking for a miracle or even a sign.
I'm only asking for a blessing
someone to tell me it's fine
I haven't asked for much
& I hope it's not a lot
If so I'll just keep living.
Take one day at a time.
I'll keep helping && always loving
I'll continue to smile.
I'm grateful Lord.
I truly am.
For EVERYTHING
To move. . .
To breathe. . .
To love. . .
Amen

To this person that has broken my heart...I thought you were the answer to this prayer..and maybe you were but I wouldn't take back these past months..even if I had a choice. If someone asked me tomorrow if I could go back in time and change it...I wouldn't. It was mean to be and I will go to my grave thinking that. If I could do anything for you, I would. If I could make you happy, successful, and content, I would. I would take away all the pain, suffering, and hardships that you endure just to make life that much easier for you. If I had the power to show you what you could have and what you could be then I definitely would. You have been a part of me and I have shared things with you that I will never share with anyone else. We experienced and went through things together that not typical people go through..even in our short relationship. You have been and will continue to be one of the greatest people I've ever known and have one of the biggest places in my heart. You have taught me and shown me things that I will forever remember. You've shared things with me that I will always hold dear to my heart.Yes, I'm hurting! Yes, this isn't easy! Yes, I'm a human, I have feelings, and am struggling more than I've ever struggled before. I will never really know if you enjoyed being with me or put on a fake smile, I will never really know if you cared or only pretended to show it, and I will never really know if when you said I love you, you truly meant it or only said it without feelings. But I want you to know that I have been nothing but sincere to you. I have been honest, loyal, and loving to you over the course of our relationship. I didn't mean to get close to you, I did mean for it to go this far or share the things we did. I didn't mean to fall in love with you...but I did. And it's not gonna be easy, I'm not gonna fall out of love over night but I'm trying to do everything I can just to get my mind off of you. I wish you luck, success, and happiness in the goals and dreams you set for yourself. I hope you work hard and keep your mind set on whats really important and what you truly need for yourself. Don't loose sight of those important things. For now know that I love you and will keep you close to me heart for the rest of me life. Thank you for the greatest time in my life! I've appreciated every single second I've been with you. You will always have a friend in me. I love you!

22 Great Memories of Rexburg

2009-02-11T13:09:00.000-08:00

I'm about to head up to Rexburg for the weekend and it got me thinking about all the great memories Adam, Emily, and I had so I thought I'd make a list of all of them and share them with the world...or at least the few people that read my blog.
1. The first night I was there alone I went over to Adam's and Emily's and walked in the door...I'm not even kidding I think I had to crawl over their entire apartment that was all over the floor. I think I tripped on the microwave..Seriously it was a mess and Adam and Emily were on their death bed from the terrible flu they had gotten from family members. They had puked their way to Rexburg...I slowly crept my way back out.
2. The day Emily had a migraine and I took her to the student health center where they put some drug in her that made her wig out, hyperventilate, and throw her legs and arms around in complete chaos. I rushed her calmly to the ER where we had to deal with some doctor that should've been a police officer rather than a doctor and a nurse that thought we were crazy and over dramatic. SHE COULDN'T CONTROL HER LEGS PEOPLE!!!!
3. Along with the migraine Emily and I had a great weekend together without Adam. Went to the movie in Idaho Falls where we watched national treasure 2 and Emily introduced me to Wicker Park and I made her watch Nanny Mcphee...and yes we slept in the same bed. SISTA SISTA!!!
4. The CELEBRATION JUBILATION PROCLAMATION (and something naughty I better not say) this one is a long story and would gladly share it with anyone who asks but they may not think it's funny. We defiantly went as jeaners though and made poor Courtney meet us in the middle of the street with my skirt amongst CHAOS!!! We made a lot of friends that night and if only Emily had wore her wedding ring we may have avoided the whole situation
5. The MANY times we forced Adam to go to taco bell and the many times we forced Emily to go get custard at the backyard...ha
6. Adam helping me with stupid English 311 that was more of a philosophy and ethics class than English. I never would've passed that class without Adam. Along with that class the day that my English group finally figured out that Adam was my brother. It was Carl (the not so bright one) who finally made the connection.
7. HAHA! I'm already laughing on this one...the night Adam tried to dye Emily's hair and I was the one rushing to Wal-Mart for dye. It ended up turning the color of a penny...not Emily's best moment.
8. The time we were driving back to Rexburg and finally stopped at that historical site at the top of that little hill. The one with the pioneer cemetery behind it and the steps that were loosing their bricks. There were a lot of steps...also the time that Emily and I whipped out her old 90’s CD’s and made Adam listen to them. NOW THAT’S WHAT I CALL MUSIC!!!
9. Almost exactly a year ago Adam yelled at me for being sick..I'll never forget that and Emily just held me while I cried and Adam yelled. The next day I found out I had Pneumonia
10. Two words...ADAM'S BOIL!!!!!
11. The night I made Adam stop in Pocy so I could see my then boyfriend Thomas for a little while...the deal was I got fifteen minutes with Thomas and the rest of the semester of washing Adam and Emily's dishes which I got out of after the whole migraine incident. Ha I regret that now..I was just being silly!
12. Running into each other on campus to get hot dogs or mini loaves for lunch.
13. This wasn't last year but the weekend I came to visit and Emily made those good cookies and I talked about the Swiss cow I wanted to take care of and rub it's sore muscles..which I don't recall and I think Adam and Emily are making up.
14. The night Emily bawled after watching P.S. I love you with me and my roommates
15. That time that Adam stayed up almost all night to make those note cards for a final that was like three days before he was supposed to graduate. His studying skills make me sick...he was gonna graduate and get high honors whether he passed that test or not...I'm pretty sure!
16. Putting our heart and souls into Adam getting elected Student Body President..many cold nights handing out flyers. Sadly he did not win but we got to make fun of Jenny Jenkins and it made it all worth it.
17. What can I say...Jenny Jenkins is a memory all in herself! But the top two things I remember about her is when she hugged Emily...ha I wasn't even there but I think it's hilarious and the time she was praying in the Student Body meeting and she prayed to bless the construction workers on campus and their families...I think i peed a little that night...
18. The day Emily fainted at work...haha that makes me giggle
19. Cupcake cafe and dipping cookies in hot chocolate..hey guys we should do that now. I love that little treat!
20. Enjoying together the cold days and nights in Rexburg, standing in front of the oven trying to get warm.
21. That day we got pizza and ice cream and sat in the MC where the guy proceed to vacuum right around Emily.
22. That one girl on adam's campaign committee that I'm pretty sure smoked pot! I love imitating her..I can't remember her name. Amy I think!? Adam just barely informed Emily and I she was a freshmen which is INSANE!!!

I'm sure there are many many more little ones that I'm missing but I think twenty-two is enough for now...and if I think of more I can add onto it later (: Enjoy!

Ebert and Roeper

2009-02-04T12:16:00.000-08:00

Roger Ebert and Richard Roeper are the two most common and very famous movie critics. Those are the names you always hear on the loud commercial with that guy's voice (who recently died by the way...sad) that says "Ebert and Roeper give it four stars!" Neither of which are very attractive men but if I had to choose it would be Roeper for sure. Anyways...I'm going to be a movie critic in this post so bear with me and if you don't agree well tough! I don't care. I just recently (in the last few days) saw two movies. One was Swing Vote and the other Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. (pictures above) I had expectations for both of these movies. I expected Swing Vote to be rather silly and a waste of time but I was bored having no life so I watched it and I'll tell you...I was pleasantly surprised. I really was! Maybe it's because I grew up in the hickest town of America and we're dealing with such a horrible economy right now but this movie really touched me. The ending shocked me a little but I really liked it. It was just a cute movie to sit down and watch with the family. I would recommend this movie and I don't even like Kevin Costner! I'd give it **** (four stars) My expectations for the second movie were high, and perhaps that was my problem to begin with. I was super excited when I saw the previews and was actually going to go with a friend on opening day (but i had to work) but now that I've seen it I'm glad I didn't pay money. It wasn't all that great. There were funny parts and witty one liners but it was nothing like Juno funny. It kind of dragged on and I was able to figure out the ending in the first thirty minutes. Sufficed to say I only give this movie ** (two stars) I just wasn't all that impressed. If anyone else feels different about these movies then you are more than welcome to your opinion but as of now this is how I feel. Thanks for reading!

The Comfort of New Socks

2009-01-22T13:09:00.000-08:00

These are a few random thoughts I just wanted to get out in the open for me, personally. If you would like to read them, then by all means be my guest. If no one reads them, then no loss for me. First off there's this stupid quote I can not think of about love. And I don't know what movie it is from but I know it's a movie and I know it's one I've seen in the last few months. I'm seriously at a loss. I almost want to trace back to all the movies I've seen since november just so I can figure it out but of course that maybe take some serious thinking and time. The time I have plenty of..the thinking, not so much. I don't know why I'm frustrated with this but I would really like to know where I'm getting it from. It's just one of those things where you just want to figure out or you know it will bother you until the day you die. So that's one thing...The next is how grateful I am to have the friends that I have. I couldn't ask for better ones..I couldn't have hand picked more perfect people. The other day I was having probably the worst day of my entire life..and I know everyone says that but literally I'm pretty sure this even tops my 18th birthday when Sam Burdick told me he was going to go to the dance with Amber Wallentine instead of me and then he gave me a high five like that fixed it all. Don't get me wrong Sam is a freakin stud...that's not the point...the point is that this day didnt't evne compare to that. And one friend just hugged me...one of those hugs where they didn't try to pull away or ask how they could help. She just hugged me and let me bawl getting snot and tears all over her work shirt. She didn't care..she knew I was hurting, and lonely, and extremely confused. And then my other friend who is not as touchy bought me a GIANT bag of reeses, cheetoes and new socks and seriously people if you haven't felt the comfort of new socks on a rough day then you are seriously missing out. To these two girls I will be truly grateful. Not only for this day but the many days I've share with them before and the ones I know I will share with them. They are two of my greatest friends! Another thought it's amazing to me how one thing leads to another in the sense that one things goes wrong and then you think of a million other things that are problems. I have no job, I'm not in school, I have about five hundred dollars to my name which everyone knows will not get me very far going up to rexburg. I have no car and no clue what I'm supposed to be doing. I finally had an AH HA moment (don't't even ask me where I got that from..I think it was a book of mormon teacher or seminary. They come up with strange things like that) the other night. It wasn't anything great and it didn't solve any of my problems but it got me facing in the right direction...not the next thing to do is find motivation and strength to conquer the things I know that I must. I'm doing my best to take things one day at a time and asking for the Lord's help every morning and night in humble and sincere prayer but everyone knows how hard life can be. But for now...I'm still breathing, and still grateful, and still VERY hopeful that things will work out exactly how they should.

LiveLaughLove

2009-01-13T11:25:00.000-08:00

Pictures of my and my all time bestest friends ever! We had so much fun doing this. It was such a great memory. It was a rushed photo shoot thought because we were loosing light fast. Which kinda sucked but I told Emily she's got to have at least one bad photo shoot. They can't all be perfect! So here there are..and even though they aren't the greatest. We had loads of fun!!

Hope for 2009

2009-01-06T13:33:00.000-08:00

I hope to do better in school
I hope Obama does something to help this country
I hope to be a better person in general
I hope to do at least 5 things I've never done before
I hope Emily and Adam start making babies (hint hint)
I hope to visit the temple at least six times
I hope to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life
I hope to loose at least thirty pounds
I hope to break two bad habits
I hope there are no family trips to the emergency room
I hope Alex starts school is something and handles it well
I hope to get a car of my own
I hope to have less fights with the parentals
I hope I can finish the Book of Mormon...ALL THE WAY THROUGH!!!
I hope Guel and I stick to our plans
I hope the war ends
I hope things start to get easier and work themselves out
I hope to be a little happier than I was last year

Just wanting to post something...

2008-12-28T17:25:00.001-08:00

So here are some random pictures that I took at various times...a few were for a humanities assignment and I basically broke all the rules he set out but he loved my pictures so much that I got 100%...ha yeah I know I'm braggin but oh well. I was proud of myself. And the flowers are from a trip to Canada on Spring break a few years ago. They are done on a super crappy camera and no editing so it took a while to get a perfect just but enjoy more pictures.. again and don't be critical!

.:Christmas:.

2008-12-26T10:54:00.000-08:00

So Christmas came and went...it was actually pretty good and it did finally start to feel like Christmas towards the evening of Christmas Eve. Santa did find our house and the whole family was able to get some fun gifts. Here's just a few pictures I took Christmas Eve as I was a little bored. Enjoy! Oh and please don't be to critical. They are just for fun!

Christmas is coming...

2008-12-24T14:14:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking for the last few weeks that it just does not feel like Christmas this year. I dunno what it is but I'm not really feeling the spirit of things. It's almost to the point that it feels like just another day. Today is Christmas Eve...usually I feel excited and happy to be home with my family, playing games, and eating myself silly. I thought, at first, that it may be the lack of snow in our backyard but then it snowed two feet and I still felt down. Then I thought maybe it was because I haven't finished my Christmas shopping but I accomplished that soon after. I've noticed that many other people I've talked to feel the same way. I wish there was some explanation for such madness but I have not been able to come up with a conflusion yet. Perhaps it is because I've finally hit the big 2-0 and I know it's time to grow up. I told my mother how I was feeling and jokingly ask if maybe I should sing the famous "Where are you Christmas?" and something amazing would happen. She left that decision up to me but guessed it wouldn't do anything. I guess I'll just sit back, do my best to enjoy the excitement, and let Christmas come..

THE SORE OF DEATH...death...death

2008-12-14T15:27:00.000-08:00

Wednesday: I began feeling, what felt like a canker sore, on the very back of my jaw...the spot where one's wisdom teeth are supposed to come in. I thought nothing of this hoping it would only go away in just a few short days.
Thursday: The sore got a little worse so I confided in my boyfriend. He said to swish with salt water and put baking soda on it. I vigorously used the salt water as much as I possibly could stand it but did not want to resort to baking soda. I went to bed feeling better and desperately praying for this nastiness to go away.
Friday: The sore had become worse and had grown at least a quarter of an inch. I confide yet again in my boyfriend and solemnly confessed I had not used the baking soda. He scolded me and told me to start using it now, smash up some aspirin to numb it, and pop an Advil. I did just as he order and went off to work feeling much better from the drugs and such..
Saturday: There are absolutely no such words to describe the monstrosity of the something in my mouth. I felt HORRIBLE!!! I had never felt this sort of pain before and my family and I were heading to Salt Lake that day for a play. I finally told my parents but they seemed to not think it was a big deal (my father even made fun of it by calling it trench mouth) and told me to take some pain reliever. I went on through out the day..not being able to speak, eat, or even swallow. This deathly sore had attacked my throat, tongue, and anything else surrounding it's borders. Finally my parents took a look at the diseased thing attacking my mouth. And everyone had their opinion...brush it out, floss it, there's something stuck in there, it's a bad tooth, swish it with hydrogen peroxide...and various other things. On our way home we stopped at Target to pick up all the supplies I would need to attack this thing and then at my brother's house where he made me swish that disgusting chemical. Finally arriving home, I gathered my supplies (and a needle), and headed for my bathroom. I numbed my left side of my mouth completely, took the needle, and popped the creature growing inside of me. I'm sad to say only blood came out but I swished and brushed till I was crying. I finally couldn't take it anymore and called my boyfriend. Through the tears I told him I was dying and this was the end. This stupid thing was going to attack my whole body. Obviously I was being a litte over dramatic but I will never be able to describe such pain. After an hour of crying, holding my mouth, and taking a very large spleeping pill I went to sleep.
Sunday and ten hours later: HALLELUJAH HALLELUJAH!!! IT WAS A CHRISTMAS DAY MIRACLE!!! I could swallow, I could talk, I could open my mouth, and I could EAT!!!! It was amazing! I had been blessed the whole night. The infection had taken a toll on my body...my lymph node is swollen, my body aches, and my throat still hurts but that's NOTHING compared to craziness the day before. It was amazing!

I will never know what had attacked me that wednesday morning but I'm sure glad it's gone. The moral of the story: When crazy creatures attack your body, take pictures to show everyone.

Officially

2008-12-11T18:22:00.000-08:00

After a brief consolation with my sister in law, I think I've got this blogging thing figured out (although I still can't come up with a title I like). I like to call this post "The Official Proceeding the Unofficial." My thoughts for tonight are as follows and I will be using the word official a lot so be prepared. To add to me officially becoming a blogger, I'm ecstatic to share with the world that I am officially certified to draw humans blood...yes Edward has finally bit my neck...NO! PUKE! DOUBLE PUKE!!! The real reason is I passed my phlebotomy class at Bridgerland, which I am proud to say, with an A!!! I couldn't believe it when I saw the grade. I had to blink once or twice and focus in like Wall-E. I was so excited...almost as much as my father who hugged me for approximately ten minutes. It is something I will forever be proud of! Also I am officially finished with USU...FOREVER!!! I finished my last final on Wednesday and I feel AMAZING!!! I'm absolutely thrilled to be done with the snotty USU girls, cliques up the wazoo, and the high school feel of that place. Minus the time in class, I spent about fifteen minutes a day up there. I didn't even know where the library was! I loathed that place entirely. Between the crazy Ballam stories and the weirdo's in my institute class, I had about all I could take of those delta delta delta can I help ya help ya help ya people so...so long, farewell USU...you will be easily and happily washed away from my memory forever!!! Go blue or go home...I prefer the latter.
♥ali

[[blogging]]

2008-12-11T15:43:00.000-08:00

Well people....I've finally gone and done it! I've entered the blog world and there's no turning back now. One of my best friends Hillary just started a blog and my sister in law and brother have blogged for a while...and I've had this stupid username and password for the last year so I thought heck why don't I join the fun!? It's kinda nice having a place to type everything and if people wanna read it great...if people don't no biggie! This is strictly for me and I'm kinda excited. I'm a little confused! I'll admit that! I don't know where to begin but I guess the first post a good place right!? So here it is people...my first post as an official blogger! And I know exactly what I want my next post to be on but this is not the time nor the place for such thoughts so until next time blogging world!
♥ali